Ok so I’ll I was trying to do was study for my test tomorrow... but things kept popping into my head out o da blue... and my brain wouldn't stop going 100mph, thinking about so many things, everything but the book in front of me... I finally gave in. I opened a blank page, closed my eyes, grabbed the next thought to go rushing by and not thinking ( Read more... )

Even if you know better it is so easy to fall into, with or without realizing it, the trap of putting something off... my head hurts so much but if I can sit down and find myself writing about the very thing that I am doing but know I should not be... then I can no longer make excuses for not getting to work now can I? ha-ha, I out did myself with ( Read more... )

Alright I can't decide if this sounds stupid or not so you tell me.... I end up with strange things when I feel like writing and sit down to write without something specific in mind. So I just wrote this because I felt like writing but I had no clue what about ( Read more... )

I had to sing my first song in front of my voice class today, omg, I wasn't nervous till last night, I didn’t get to bad though, not as nervous as I usually get and I was even all shaky after hearing what the teacher had to say and the classes comments... but I’m still having trouble believing what I heard hen I was done! I didn’t do anything wrong ( Read more... )

This site isn't that bad, I’m actually starting to like it. It is very nice for a ton of journal crap which might be good for me since I can't seem to keep up a written journal however much I try, I wish I could pull that off it's something I’ve always wanted to do but I guess for now I shall try this out... myspace is awesome but it is lacking in ( Read more... )

I found another old file, i wrote when things were good... when i was happy all the time and things were simple and easy... if only we could go back, but we can't. So learn, suck it up and move on ( Read more... )

i feel lost again, everything feels out of control, i don't know what i feel, not sure what i want.... who, what, when, where? how shall i do this? i wish not to hurt, i would never forgive myself for hurting of any kind, intentional or unintentional, that is me. i wish not to be hurt, i am strong but it hurts me so, i do not want to feel that way ( Read more... )

FIle Created on Saturday, December 18, 2004, 8:47:02 PM ( Read more... )

i had forgotten writing this, i was looking for some other things that i remember writing, at the begining, that i might be able to use for something.. but instead i first find this, which i wrote near the end, before i was abandoned..... tell me what u think, if anything... your thoughts... etc ( Read more... )

It rained tons more today again, so kool. I got up late, not what i was planing but whatever it was prob good for me, i surfed gaia for awhile and then i spent the rest of the day doing 20 journals for english. Eck. But i got it done so that's good. *sigh* I don't want to be by myself though. But i'm getting better at it, i'll be alright ( Read more... )