»22: ah, reality.

[lunarflowers]

Feeling a little better today. Nothing too extravagant but...better, none the less. And I apologize that if whatever I say in the entry makes it super tl;dr. I'm not fishing for sympathy. I'm not fishing for anything really. I just need to get whatever is written here off my chest because it's just been settling for awhile. So. Yeah. Apologies

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[shatters]

Dahling, I can't give you any good relationship advice, so I won't even try. Instead I'll just heart you and wish that all goes well for you there.

What I do advice is to take today off, after class -drink or eat something you like, go home, turn off the computer and just relax. Maybe watch a movie- disconnect.

[lunarflowers]

I don't really think there is much advice anyone can give on the relationship aspect of things, since this is mainly something that I need to do on my own, y'know? Whether it goes well or not at least be able to come out of it knowing that I did the right thing in ending it. Well, I that, at least. I might just be trying to keep up with the optimism regardless of situations. It will be the death of my one day.

But...yeah. Maybe. I think I might stop off at a restaurant I haven't been to for awhile - I'll let my grandparents know, so they aren't flipping out with worry - and go home and do all of that.

Thanks, Tani ♥

[shatters]

Not at all, I just wanted to make sure that you have support from this corner. Rest up and you do know I'm about if you need.

[snoozy]

OH. internet access in EVERY kind of place you might be, is always a plus lol.

and. dude, it is your journal, you can write whatever the shit you want actually. and what you actually wrote is not shit in the first place so w/e.
idk, i think the TALKING part is major. i mean, not seeing each other often can at times be bad /i know that well enough/ but the talking part IS always bad if it does not occur. if you feel uncomfy around him or not like you used to, i think you should break things off. it is not fair for you and not fair for him either. you just have to wonder if it is temporary feeling though, or you have been feeling this for LONG-long. if it is the latter, then yes, breaking up would be the wisest.

[lunarflowers]

It is, it is. I'm finally glad to have it here in school. I won't have to be going between my laptop and the school's desktop computer all the time ah haha.

Yeah, that's true, but there are those times when I can't help but apologize a little for whatever I write since I tend to get really wordy when I'm on a roll. But. Yeah. Talking is the one major part in a relationship, especially on my end. I'm a quiet person by default but when I'm in a relationship - or I like the person - I can get quite chatty. But, hm...I don't think what I"m feeling is anything temporary. I've been feeling this for awhile and I know that it won't change anytime in the future.

I mean. It's a shame to have to end this but I know that he'll be able to find someone who will actually be able to love him and just not see him as anything more than a good friend. It'll also be better for the both of us if this is ended because, as you said, it's not fair for either of us.

[snoozy]

lol, it is STILL your journal. you can post whatever you want. even porn. /just make sure it is under a cut, so i can check it safely, hur. lol, no srs.

and well yeah then, if you want to move on, better be honest with him too.

[pyrasaur]

Hey man, it's your journal. Vent about whatever you want.

Best of luck with things, and hey, have some cute.