My Slave YAOI chapter 39
have i told you how good it feels to me,
when i'm in you?
i can only stay clean
when your around.
don't let me fall,
if i close my eyes forever
would it ease the pain?
could i breathe again?
maybe i'm addicted
i'm out of control
but your the drug
that keeps from dying
maybe i'm a liar,
but all i really know
is your the only reason i'm trying.
i am wasted away
i made a million mistakes
am i too late?
there is a storm in my head
that rains on my bed
when your not here
i'm not of afraid of dying, but
i am afraid of losing you.
when your lying next to me
love is flowing through to me
and, oh, its beautiful
everything is clear to me
till i hit reality,
and i loose it all,
i loose it all...
song addicted by enrique iglesias
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Yunho's pov
I wake up with a smile on my face. Todays the day I'm going to tell my pretty boy how much I love him. Kangin and Yoochun is going to help me make it a special day for Jae, and I can't wait to see his face when I show him what is planned. Still with a smile, I turned to wake Jae, only to find an empty spot where Jae should be lying. Thinking that he was in the bathroom, I strolled lazily to the door, opening it slowly, I looked in. I had expected to see Jae in there, but the room was empty. Standing there, with my forefinger tapping my chin, I thought a minute. Maybe he went to the kitchen to get a drink. Slipping on my boxers, I walked down to the kitchen. Empty. No Jae. Thats when I started to worry. Whats going on here? Seeing a maid, I stopped her, "Have you seen Jaejoong?" I asked her in a rushed voice. The maid shook her head no, "No master. I've not seen anyone this morining." The maid turned and went on with her work. At that very exact moment, I felt a heavy settling in the pit of my stomach. Running, I climb the stairs and barge into my bedroom. Looking at the floor, I see no trace of Jaes clothes. Again, I question myself, Whats going on here? Why did he leave, because now it was evident that he has left. Throwing on some clothes, I hurry to my car.
There's one person who would know where Jae is. In the back of my mind, I was hoping that he had somethings to do, and wasn't running from me. While lost in thought, I found myself parking in front of Lee Sungmin Seniors house. Quickly walking up the front walk to the front porch, I pounded on the door. Hankyung opened the dorr, not looking surprised to see me there. "Wheres Jae? Is he here? Let me see him, now!" I grabbed him by the shirt front, shaking him a little. I felt that I needed to make my urgency known to him. Hankyung just looked at me with disgust on his face. "Why should I tell you anything. After everything that you did to Jae, what makes you think your worthy of him?" Sungmin walked up to us, "Yunho, what are you doing here?" My eyes went to the smaller boy, "I came for Jae, please tell him I'm here." I tried to talk nicely to them, but worry for Jae made my voice sound rougher than I intended. "He's not here. He's not in Korea anylonger. He came by about two thirty this morning and got his stuff and left. He didn't tell us where he was going, just that he was leaving. I can tell you this though, he's not in Europe." Hankyung smirked at me, then started to close the door. "NO!" I yelled at him, "No! You know where he is, tell me!" I was desperate now, but Hankyung just shook his head, putting a hand on my chest, he pushed me out of the doorway and closed the door in my face. Thats when I felt the tears falling down my cheeks. Jae. Why did you leave? Where are you? Please come home! I drove home, my tears falling freely.
four days later
Yunho's pov
Sitting in the lunchroom, I watch Hankyung and Sungmin on the far side of the room. I had tried numerous times over the last four days to get them to tell me where Jae was. I've hired P.I.'s, but nothing came back. It was like Kim Jaejoong dissapeared from the face of the earth. Still watching the two guys, I got up and made my way over to them. I stood there looking down at them. Hankyung stopped talking and slowly looked up to me. I slowly got down on my knees, my actions causing the room to go quit. I bowed my head as I felt the tears pour down my face. "Please, please, tell me where my love is. I'm begging you, please tell me where Jae is." My shoulders shaking from my sobbs. "I love him so much. Please tell me." I begged Jaes bestfriends. Sungmin looked down at the broken man, "Tell him hankyung. If you don't I will." Hankyung looked over to Sungmin. Frowning at me then sighning, "Fine. Jaes in..."
Jaejoong's pov
I stand, looking out the window watching the Northren Lights dance across the dusky sky. Evn though it was eight oclock at night, It looked like early evening outside. I leaned my forehead against the window pane, and see the snowflakes gently float down to the earth. There must have been a solar flare recently, I thought. Yunho, I wish you where here with me. Alaskas beautiful right now. I wish you where standing here beside me watching the Arora Borealis, mother natures light show, flash across the sky. Lost in my thoughts, I was startled as I hear my cousin Kibum bound down the stairs, fixing his hair with his fingers. I smiled as I watched him come over to me. "Wow, Kibum, you look good. Hot date tonight?" I ask him, "As a matter of fact, yes." He grinned wolfishly at me. "Oh, really. Whos the lucky girl?" Kibum gave me a strange look, "Girl? Oh no, not a girl, a guy. And you don't wait up for me, ok." I smiled sadly as I watch him slip on his subzero jacket. "Don't worry, i won't." Kibum paused going to the log cabin door. "Jae. Jae, you just take it easy, ok." Kibum told me, looking at me with worry on his face. "I will, I'll read a little bit, then go to bed. Thats my big plans for the night." Kibum smiled a little smile, "Ok then, see you tommorrow, alright." And he headed out.
Signing for what felt like the thousandth time that day, I headed over to the couch and sat down. I sat there, for maybe thirty minutes, before deciding to go on to bed. Half way upstairs, I hear the doorbells ring peel through the cabin. Who could that be at this hour. Walking to the door, i opened it and sucked in a sharp breath. "Yunho!" My eyes drank in the sight of him, like a man dying of thirst and then being offered a drink of water. I was frozen in that spot, my right hand on the door, my left hand on my heart, which thought it would be a good idea to start beating again, and at a faster pace. Yunho's eyes wondered over me, "Aren't you going to invite me in, it's kind of cold out here." He said, brushing past me, entering the cabin. He looked around, "Nice and cozy house. Mind telling me why your here and not in Korea?" Yunho asked me, his eyes moving over my face. I didn't answer him, but asked, "Why are you here? I thought my leaving would have told you everything that you would need to know. Why are you in Alaska, and how did you find me?" I walked over to the fireplace, standing next to the glowing embers. Yunho stalked over to me, his face set in angry lines, looking like stone, "What am I doing here? I'm here to get whats mine! And your damned bestfriend took his slow sweet time telling me your where abouts, but Sungmin finally made him tell me." I felt my eyes widened and my fist clench. What was I, a possison that he thought he owned! "Here to get whats your! Theres nothing here that belongs to you! Now you can leave, go back to Korea!" I felt myself tremble, he had to leave, he has to if I'm going to survive this heartach. He laughed, "Nothing here, huuh. Then what about you, you told me you loved me, are you so fickle, changing your mind suddenly?" I was out right shaking now, "Yes, I've changed my mind! I have someone else! He'll be here any minute!" At that moment Kibum chose to come into the house. "Hey Jae, I..." Kibum was cut off as Jae kissed him on the lips. Jae lifted his head and looked at Yunho, "This is my boyfriend. He's the one I love now Yunho!" Yunho stood still, then he was gone, slamming the door on his way out. Kibum broke away from Jae, "OH GOD!! That was so gross! We're cousins! Don't ever do that again!" Before I could say sorry, the front door was banged back open, reaviling a pissed off Yunho, "Cousins! Your cousins!!" I didn't stck around to face Yunho's wrath. I ran through the house and out the back door. I ran into the open field and fell to my knees, breathing hard. I raised my head and looked at the night sky. I wrapped my arms around myself, rocking back and forth, crying. Then I heard running footsteps behind me, and I whipped my head around to see Yunho bearing down on me. Clumsly, I got up, ran a few steps and tripped, landing face down in the snow. I feel Yunho's hands rolling me over, and he straddled me, sitting on my stomach. "Jae! Stop running! Stop! Don't run from me anymore." I chocked on a sob working its way up in my throat. "Yunho please, don't. Don't do this to me. It hurts. I hurt so bad when you make me think you care, when you don't. I can't take the pain anymore. I love you so much. I love you, knowing that you'll never return my love. Just let me go, please." I was pushing on his chest, trying to get him off me, when I hear him say, "No."
Yunho's pov
Looking down at Jaes face, I had never seen him more beautiful. His cheeks, lips and nose where cherry red. His big brown eyes luminous. "No, I'm not going to let you go. Don't you know Jae? don't you know how much I love you? This past week has been pure hell for me. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. All I could think of was you. All I could dream of was you. All I wanted was for you to be back by my side. Jae, I've loved you from the beginning. When you spilled your lunch on me. I looked up and saw the most beautiful, sweet, innocent boy, I had ever seen, and I knew then that I'd do anything to have you." I moved my head closer to his and brushed my lips on his cheeks,"I made you my slave to make sure you would always be with me. I love you so much. I came to this god forsaken country to bring you back home with me. Please Jae, accept me, accept my love. stay with me forever. Be my love slave forever, Jae please say yes." I see Jae smiling sweetly at me. "Yunho, all I ever wanted was for you to tell me you loved me. Not want me or think of me as a possison. But to love me as much as i love you. Yes, i love you and will be your love slave forever." I leaned my head back down and our lips meet. And the snow fell, and the Northren Lights lit up the snowy night, and we kissed........
A/N one more chappie to go, guys ^.^