My Slave YAOI chapters 46
Jaejoong's pov
I'm stunned. No, I'm shocked. No, he's just lying!!" Appa? Appa, tell me this isn't true. It's a lie!" I feel my eyes flooding and then tears drenching my face. I watch as my father slowly shakes his head no. "I'm sorry Jae, but it's true. She heard from some friends that her little boy had gotten into a relationship with his friend. She was coming over to give her consent, to let you have your relationship with the Jung boy. She was so happy that you where in love, she had to come tell you herself." After hearing this, I felt my heart break. Omma. Omma was dead because of me. She died because of me, her son. I fell to my kness, my hands covering my face. I felt Yunho's hands on my shoulders, but I shook them off. I killed my mom! Thats all that went through my head. I killed my mom. I feel Yunho's arms go around me, lifting me up off the floor and setting me down on the couch. I laid my head on the armrest and cried. I hear Yunho, "How did she die?" The question making me lift my head, "I know how she died! I KILLED HER!!" I screamed out to him. My appa ran over to me. "No! NO! Do not say that. It wasn't your fault. She died in a plane crash, Jaejoong. You had nothing to do with that!" I shook my head. Didn't they understand, she was coming to see me. If she hadn't been coming to see me, she wouldn't have been on that plane. I looked over at Yunho. I can see the sadness in him as he put his arms around me. "Jae, it'll be ok. I'll take care of you, if Mr. Kim will let you stay here with me." Yunho looked up at Jae's father, "Will you allow him to stay with me? At least until he gets over his mom's death." Mr Kim looked from Yunho to Jae, "Yes, I'll let Jae stay as long as nessary. But, for now I have to go. There are arrangments and plans to make. Jae, you rest and don't be blaming yourself for this. I'll see you tommorrow." Mr kim looks at Yunho, "Make sure he sleeps tonight and that he eats, ok. Do this for him and just keep holding him. Hold him tightly, Yunho." With that Mr. Kim left the Jung household.
three days later
Jaejoongs pov
I was siting on the back pourch in a swing, thinking of nothing. Well, thinking of my mom. My mom, I felt my swollen eyes fill up again. I have cried enough to fill a river for the last couple of days. The pain is still there, not dimming at all. I loved my mom. Loved her more than anything, and had missed her greatly while she had been gone. The worst thing is not being able to tell her goodbye. To see her grow old. To see her as a grandmother, it hurt to think these things.
I've been sitting here in this same spot for four hours not moving, with Yunho beside of me. Always beside me. Does he know how much I love him for that. Even in moarning I still thought about him. I missed being with him, but it's my fault. I just couldn't get over causing my mom's death. The guilt hanging over me like a dense cloud. Yunho was my only ray of light, my only salvation. He has grounded me the last couple of days and never has left my side, never asked me for anything. Even offering to sleep in a different room. Of course, I said no, I wanted him there with me at night to cling to. I needed him to hold me at night, to feel his warmth.
I hear footsteps coming up to us. A maid bowed and spoke, "Sir, Yoou have a guest." And she led us to the livingroom. I see my father, and run up to him, hugging him. But he held me by the shoulders, holding me from him. "Jaejoong, I need to tell you something, but, Before I do you need to know that this is going to be as hard for me as it will be for you." I give him a confused look as he gave me a legal looking document, "Jaejoong as of yesterday the Jung family has officially adopted you into thier family. You are no longer a Kim, but a Jung. I'm sorry son, but I can't look at you. You look like your mom to much and it hurts, I can't have you around me, and get over my loss." I feel my legs tremble, "I just lost my mom and now your telling me you don't want me! What kind of person are you!!!I need you! Why are you leaving me." I watch as turns but not before Yunho jerks him back around, "Don't you ever come here again, you bastard!" Mr kim leaves and I seank to the floor, the paper balled up tightly in my fist. I look blankly at the floor as I feel my world crumble around me. Then I start laughing, as I think back to my dreams, "Now, I know. This is how you'll always be in my life. As a fucking brother!!!"