Dark Surrounds Me Part 7
I slowly placed the phone back in its cradle.
"Jaejoong, I love you." Yunho's love confession kept rebounding at me. I had told him that I loved him in the hospital, and I know I still do. Right now, I just wanted Yunho to sweat it out for a while. By not telling him I love you back was torture for Yunho. I didn't care how mean it was for me to do this to him, at this point.
If I am to go back to him, then I needed this for me. I was being cruel. I was being hardhearted. I was being the same way Yunho had been to me, and I was going to let him feel how it felt to be me in the last few months. And I didn't care one bit how he felt about it.
Was I going to hurt Yunho? Yes, I was.
Was it going to be as bad as what he did to me? No, it wasn't. I didn't have the heart to hurt him like he hurt me.
Will I enjoy it? Yes. In some crazy sick way, I was excited about what I had planned for Yunho. I felt this thrill race through me at the idea of what I was going to put Yunho through. I felt my breathing increasing at the images I got from my ideas, and I couldn't wait for when he came over tomorrow.
I just wanted to hurt him. I was not going to apologize for feeling this way. Yes, Yunho may be trying to change, according to our phone conversations, but, still that did not save him from what he's going to get. I felt like maybe I had a bit of the devil in me right at this moment. I felt the little demons working their evil ways in me. I smiled, I couldn't help it, the demons where working overtime to have me feeling like I could enjoy this just a tiny bit. I'm not a violent person, but, sometimes I felt like I could be led to destruction.
Junsu had been rather shocked by my plan, but, quickly got over it as soon as he saw what Yunho did to me. Now, I think Junsu's wondering if he had the nerve to do the same thing to his straight laced lawyer boyfriend. So, yeah, it's not too bad, but just bad enough for me to feel like I was getting some kind of closure from it.
I felt like if Yunho was going to try hard enough, then I could try to accept and forgive the past. I will never forget it, but, I think I will be able to stay with Yunho if I could get my one chance at making him pay. And it may not be one chance, if I had anything to say about it.
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I rubbed my tummy as I felt the baby kick. Yunho had asked me about my next doctor's appointment. I had told him that it was the end of this week, in two days to be exact, and we made plans to go together.
We still call it the baby because I had refused to find out what it was until Yunho went to an appointment with me. This one would be the first time he's ever gone with me.
Yunho hadn't exactly been supportive of my pregnancy. He didn't want anything to do with it, until he found out that the baby was indeed his and not his brothers. That pissed me off. He wouldn't believe me when I told him that it was his, but he'd believe that no good brother? What the hell!
And speaking of that no good for nothing brother of his.
I was truly shocked. Who would have thought that Kwong Sun would do something like that?
I shook my head. What am I thinking? He did it to me, so what made me think that he wouldn't do it again?
But to a poor innocent child? That was too much, just too much. To be doing it period was too much. It made me sick just thinking about it.
What did Yunho want to tell me? Did it have something to do with Kwong Sun?
While pondering this, Junsu walked into the room with two tall glasses of water.
I watched as he placed one glass in front of me on the table and sat in the chair.
"Junsu, you think you can have Yoochun come over for a little while tomorrow?" I glanced over to the silent boy. Junsu frowned as he looked at me, "Why?" He asked curiously, his tone not indicative to trusting why I want his boyfriend to visit tommorrow night.
Smiling, "I thought he could help move the body." Junsu sighed, "Jae, it may not be a good idea to get Yoochun involved in this. I think it might be a tad bit illegal, what youʼre doing."
I turned on my side fully facing him, "Junsu, you said you'd help me. And besides how are we supposed to lift him by ourselves? I really need your guys help."
Junsu sighed again, "Fine, I'll see what I can do. But, you owe me big time, favorite cousin of mine!"
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The next evening found me lying on the couch, with Yoochun and Junsu busying themselves in the kitchen.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I was.
I was giddy off the high I was getting from this excitement.
I sighed as I moved into a more comfortable position. The baby had been really active today, and my back and ribs where feeling it. I was a little sore from the kicking feet and thrashing hands inside me, but, I didn't mind. At least the baby was still inside safe and warm.
The door bell rang and I watched Junsu pass through the living room on his way to the front door. I hear the opening of the door and the two greeting each other, Yunho with a questioning tone and Junsu with a stilted voice. Then I hear the footsteps bringing their bodies into my view.
Yunho took the chair and Junsu went back to the kitchen with Yoochun.
I gazed at my husband as he settled into the chair and turned his eyes on me.
"Why is Junsu here?" Yunho asked me as I slowly sat up.
Huffing, a little out of breath from the ever growing girth, I turned back to him, "Mom went on a trip and Junsu said he'd stay with me until she came back." I leaned back, my belly rolling as the baby continued to move. "So what is it that you wanted to talk to me about?" I asked, just to get it out of the way and on to my plans for the night.
Yunho shifted again, "Oh, that. Yes. It seems that Kwong Sun has gotten himself into big trouble."
I felt myself stiffen; surely Yunho didn't expect me to feel sorry for him or to support him in any way. I slowly relaxed as he talked on.
"Jae, would you testify against him? Get on the stand and tell the jury what he did to you." Yunho asked me softly.
I looked down at my hands, "Yunho, I wouldn't care to do that. The only thing is that there is no proof. I never went to the hospital. There isn't any DNA, no reports taken or anything. It would be my word against his and with no proof...well you understand right? Since Kwong Sun didn't leave any evidence and I didn't get checked there is no way they'd believe me." I lifted my head back to his face and saw him frowning.
I saw for the first the bags under his eyes. Like he wasn't getting any sleep. Could it be that he is suffering from all this separation? Is he missing me in the least? Is he finding it lonely at home without me? I shook my head. So, it was his fault. He brought this on himself.
"I know there is no proof, but it would damage his character. Make him look questionable. Maybe be the deciding factor for the jury in him getting more prison time." Yunho leaned forward, "Please Jae. I know that what I did was bad, but what Kwong Sun did was worse. I want him to go to jail."
"Yunho, you deserve to be in jail to. You are no better than your brother. It doesn't matter if it's to a child or an adult. Yes, it's worse if it's with a child, but it's still the same any way you look at it. I didn't want you to go to jail, but, Kwong Sun...yes, Iʼll do it; just because he had no qualms about raping a child. It may not help, but then again as long as he goes to jail, I don't care." I grimaced as the baby gave a rather nasty kick to my side and shifted a little to ease the pressure on my bladder.
Yunho smiled and nodded his head.
I looked toward the kitchen and saw Junsu peeping at me around the corner. At my nod he brought in two cups of hot tea. Setting one in front of Yunho and the other in front of me, I smiled, "Drink up Yunho. Junsu makes good tea." I watch in satisfaction as Yunho brought the tea cup up to his lips and sipped the bittersweet brew and then smiled as he swallowed the rest in a few gulps.
I reach out and take my tea and slowly sip it, watching Yunho.
It didn't take all that long for the drug in the tea to take effect and Yunho was nodding off in the chair. Finally, he was sleeping deeply and I called out to Junsu and Yoochun.
Getting up, I took Yunho's legs as Yoochun and Junsu took him by his shoulders and arms and lifted him up. I puffed as we went up the stairs and into the bedroom. Plopping Yunho down on the bed, I turned.
"I know you guys don't agree with this. But rest assured, I will not hurt him. I could never hurt him that way, but, tonight he will learn his lesson. You guys can go now if you want. You probably don't want to be here when he wakes up."
I smiled as Yoochun chuckled, "I think I would like to be here. It might make for good entertainment tonight. But, we'll respect your privacy and leave. Junsu can spend the night at my house so you don't have to worry about him." Yoochun and Junsu left the bedroom, and a few minutes later I hear the front door closing and I was alone with my husband.
I walked over to him and gently touched his head.
I knew I didn't have a lot of time before the drug wore off so I got to work on his clothes. Stripping him, it seemed like it took forever. I could barely lift his legs up to take his jeans and boxers off. I wrestled with his upper body to get his shirt off.
When he was naked, I walked over to the dresser that held all the goodies that I was going to use on Yunho tonight and grabbed the velvet lined handcuffs and a short length of rope. I walked back over to Yunho.
Laying the handcuffs and rope on the bed, I turned Yunho over on his stomach and brought his hands together above his head, cuffing them together. Then I took the rope and wound it around the middle of the handcuffs where the chain was and then secured the rope to the post of the bed. The added length, giving Yunho a little comfort in his shoulders, and a little room to move, and he was going to want to move.
I sat on the edge of the bed and ran my fingers down the sides of Yunho's face.
Yunho started stirring, waking from his drugged sleep.