Dark Surrounds Me Part 8
beat-ed by my good friend moon1084, thank you dear.
Jaejoong’s POV
I leaned closer to Yunho, my fingers trailing over his cheek. "Yunho, are you going to wake up?" I watched his lashes flutter before he opened his eyes completely.
Confusion was swiftly taking over as he tried to move his hands and found them bound to the post of the bed. "Jae, what’s going on?"
Yunho jerked on the ropes and found that they where securely wrapped around the bedpost.
I got up and walked back over to the dresser, "No use in trying to get away Yunho. I can tie a knot as good as I can get one undone." I looked over the few things laying on the dresser top.
The question was, “What should I do first?”
I picked up my object of choice and turned back to Yunho, who had turned his head watching me with narrowed eyes.
I strolled, like any pregnant man who was almost seven months pregnant could stroll, back to the side of the bed, stopping in front of Yunho. Hiding the object behind my back, I smiled gently at Yunho. "You will not scream, Yunho." I watched in
satisfaction as Yunho's eyes widened, his head tilted at an odd angle to see my face.
Yunho struggled with the handcuffs again, "Jae, just what are you planning to do? Is this for all the pain I put you through? I apologized for that. I'll never do it again, I promise."
My hands trembled behind my back, "No use in begging Yunho. I'm done being your dog that you think you can beat whenever you feel like it. Tonight it's your turn to see what it feels like. Tonight you get to feel what I felt for all those months." I laughed lightly at the look of horror on Yunho's face. I watched as his body twist and turned on the bed trying to get away, 'And if you scream," I took the object out from behind my back, "I'll use this on you." I held the leather strap up so he could see it.
Yunho's mouth fell open, "A ball gag? You’re going to gag me! Jaejoong, please, I'm sorry. I will never touch you like that again."
I looked down at Yunho, "I will gag you if you scream, but other wise I won’t do it." I could almost feel sorry for my husband...almost.
I had Yunho right where I wanted him, so why did I suddenly feel like I was no better than him? I shook my head. This was different. I was not going to hurt him, just a little. That's all. A little hurt. There's a big difference.
I will not leave marks and will definitely stop before it becomes to much for him to bear. I will be more considerate with my husband than he was with me.
I placed the gag on the bed, as a reminder to Yunho not to scream. Then I turned back to the dresser, where my toys were stored.
I lightly traced my forefinger over a jelly dildo and the black elastic cock ring. Picking up both items, I looked at them. The dildo was big, but not bigger than Yunho. And the ring would fit Yunho snuggly.
I knew that this would hurt Yunho the most. Out of everything that I had planned this would be what broke him. Yunho had pride, and his pride will be what I will damage the most tonight.
I took the tube of Astroglide that had been laying beside the dildo and with the three items I walked back over to Yunho.
I knew Yunho saw the items I was holding. He was shaking his head, "Jae, no! Wait!"
I smirked and I knew this would get him.
Yunho has never bottomed, he was always the 'man' in our relationship, and so he didn't know how good it was to be the bottom. I would show him tonight.
I had always wanted to top Yunho. To bad I couldn't do it personally tonight. I glanced at the cock ring. I still hadn't made up my mind if I'd let him cum. I knew I probably should, just in case I wanted to top after the baby was born.
I also knew that there had to be some pleasure in this if I was to ever to get to do it again. And I knew that I would want to do it again.
Who knew I had this dark side hidden in me. Maybe I like the Dom/Sub but without the sever pain that came with the darker side of BDSM.
I knew I could live without the pain for the rest of my life. What Yunho had done to me wasn't about pleasure, but pain for pain in itself.
Tonight I would show him the difference and maybe get my need for revenge while I was at it.
I let Yunho see the size of the toy and I could see his body shaking.
Was he scared?
Good.
He needed to be.
Scared.
Just a little.
That's what I wanted, what I needed. For him to be in that mind set, a little frightened. Emotions would get him in the end, I will make sure of it.
I kneed the bed beside Yunho, and set the toy, the ring and the lube on the bed. "Get up on your knees, Yunho." I wanted him to know who was in control here. Wanted to show him that I WAS a MAN also.
Yunho jerked his head back and forth. No.
I signed, "Well, then I guess we can do this the hard way then." I removed myself from the bed once again and made my way over to the dresser.Once there, I picked up a whip. I tested the weight in my hand. It was a medium heavy little torture device.The black leather it was made out of made it look especially evil. I uncoiled the length. It wasn't that long, maybe a good ten inches from end to end.The handle had silver studs embedded in the black leather with multi strands that came from the handle.
I held the whip in one hand and gently slapped my other hand with a light smack. The sound echoing through the room, and I laughed as I see Yunho coming to his knees. Still, I brought the whip with me to the bed.
I wanted complete cooperation from my dear loving husband from now on. That didn't mean that the whip wasn't going to be used, just when I'm ready, then I'll put it to good use.
The bed gave under my weight as I sank in next to Yunho's side. I looked into his brown eyes. They held fear and some sort of unknown emotion. Was he actually liking this? Could he like this?
I shook my head. No. It was just fear I read in them wide eyes right now, nothing more. But, surely I could hope that he would come to like this.
I set the whip aside and picked up the thin black ring feeling the smoothness in my hand. I leaned over and slid my hand down toYunho's groin and palmed his cock. I pumped him a few times. Before he got his erection, I slipped the ring over his penis and settled it at his base.
This done, I continued to stroke him to full hardness causing the ring to tighten around him.
Yunho's head burrowed in the pillow as I tugged him and I hear a moan escape him and I removed my hand. It's to soon for him to feel any pleasure, if I decided I want him to feel any at all. At the moment I was thinking that I would, just because I would want to do this later.
Yunho groaned out in frustration, "Jae, please. Stop this. I can't handle this. It's to much!"
I giggled at him, "Yunho, I've just started. You think that's all there is? Your wrong. I have something special planned for you tonight."
While talking to Yunho, I moved between Yunho's legs, spreading them far apart.
Slowly, I trailed my hands over his bottom, then back up to his lower back as his shoulders and head on the bed, and his ass up in the air.
I reached over and picked up the dildo and the lube, it was time to start. I smiled at the thought.
I opened the tube and poured a good amount of Astroglide over the toy. I tossed the tube aside and smeared the lube evenly over the dildo.
Yunho had always taken me raw, with no lube or anything. I knew I couldn't do that, not after experiencing the pain of it myself.
I see Yunho's body quaking and then hear his silent sobs. I paused for a moment the jelly dildo in my hand wondering if I should continue before reminding myself that I had been in this exact same position many times.
I gently touched his butt cheek with my hand, rubbing in somewhat soothing circles.
Yunho looked back at me and I see his red-rimmed eyes and tear stained cheeks. His lips trembling, and the stark fear was very evident in his eyes.
I smiled gently again, some part of me wanting to put him at ease, but another part of me wanting to just let loose and hurt him the same way he hurt me.
With our eyes catching and holding, I slowly spread him, and gently slid the tip of the dildo inside him.
Yunho's eyes widen and I hear his sharp gasp. His eyes jerking from mine, he started wiggling and trying to get away from the invading presence behind him.
Slowly I pushed the toy further inside him until it was embedded all the way in him. His entrance stretched and was rimmed red, and I knew what he was feeling.
"Jae, please stop! It hurts! PLEASE!! I can't take any more." Yunho cried out as I gently withdrew it and then thrust it back in.
I knew all about the stinging burn, the feeling of being ripped to shreds. And the raw pain as it kept going on and on.
Leaving the jelly inside of him, I picked up the whip.
I was going to do this. He was going to see how it felt to be whipped.
The strands of the whip caressed Yunho’s back and shoulders, letting him know that the dildo wasn’t the only fucking thing that was about to happen to him. Bringing the whip to his ass, I let it glide over the firm globs.
I lifted my hand and let the whip lightly slap Yunho's left ass cheek.
Yunho's body jerked and a startled cry filled the room. Yunho turned his face back to mine, shock and that same indefinable look on his face. His hands clenching into fist, his body going stiff as I delivered another slap on his other cheek to match the first one.
It was hard enough for Yunho to feel the sting, but not hard enough to leave a mark, maybe a faint red line, but that was all.
I increased the speed in which I delivered the marks and moved to his shoulders and back the whip falling in rhythm pattern over his body.
I tried to hold back the excitement that started flowing through me at his begging of me to stop. I tried to control how heavy handed I was with the whip, I didn't really want to hurt him in the same way he had me. I felt like I was outside of my body as I let the strands fall across his ass where the dildo was.
I thought I heard a faint moan come from Yunho, was he enjoying this?
It was then that I noticed that his body had stopped jerking, and that he had stopped crying.
I leaned over as far as my belly would allow and looked Yunho in the eyes.
He has stopped crying. He looked right at me, "Jae, please. I need to cum!"
I felt my eyebrows shoot straight up at his labored statement. Incredulous, "What!? You need to cum? You don't cum until I tell you to, and if I want you to!" I wasn't mad, just surprised that he was enjoying this. And the feeling of powerful made me giddy with more excitement.
I slapped his ass harder this time with the whip and Yunho let out a strangled moan, and pushed his ass further up.
"You like this, huh?" I taunted him. "You like me whipping your sorry ass?" I struck him again, this time across his back. I gasped when he called out my name. I narrowed my eyes, "You want more? You want it harder? You want me to be rougher?" I demanded, at least he liked it. Maybe I would get to do this again.
I frowned, but, what of my revenge? I looked down at the bound Yunho. Was it his fear in the beginning that made me stop thinking of revenge all of a sudden? I had to admit as soon as I laid the first mark on Yunho that all thoughts of punishment had fled my mind. I was enjoying this just as much as Yunho was.
I laid the whip to the side. I went between his legs and took hold of the dildo. I pulled it out and roughly thrust it back in. Yunho moaned in pain, but bucked back against the toy. I pulled it out again and thrust it in harder, and I knew I hit the spot when he shouted his pleasure out. Keeping a steady pace I fucked him with the jelly dildo.
Yunho's body was slick now, sweat beading up and then sliding off his body.
Suddenly, Yunho gasped and then groaned out in pain and I stopped. "What? What's wrong?" Why was I even worrying? So what if it hurt him a little.
"Jae, the ring! Remove the ring! I can't cum with this ring on. Jae!" Yunho whimpered as I went back to fucking him hard, his body slamming back on my hand. "Jae! Oh god Jae!" Yunho buried his face in the pillow and I knew he was building up. I smirked as I see his body trembling again, but this time for a different reason.
The whole time I was doing this, I felt a stirring in my pants. I knew that I couldn't get excited. I couldn't have an orgasm because it would set off contractions again. I groaned in frustration, as I knew this would have to end soon, for my own sake.
Having thought that, I reached around and gently removed the ring, stretching it and slipping it off Yunho's throbbing red cock.
Almost as soon as he was released from the ring Yunho came, groaning out as I kept sliding the toy inside him.
I slowed down the thrust and the completely stopped and removed the dildo from Yunho, letting it fall to the bed.
I kneeled behind him, my hands at my sides, laying limply as I watched Yunho breathe in ragged breaths.
I carefully got up from the bed and walked to the side where I could see Yunho's face.
I had not expected to see a contented smile there, instead I thought would find a furious Yunho.
Slowly, I reached up and removed the rope from the posts and then walked over to the dresser and grabbed the key and returned and unlocked the handcuffs.
As soon as Yunho was free, he grabbed me, and the next instant I was under him.
The fear came back, and I started struggling under him. "Yunho! No! Please!" I could feel the tears coming and then trailing down. All thoughts of domination had disappeared. I could feel myself loosing control of my emotions, and I wondered when he pain would start.
"Jaejoong! Calm down! I'm not going to hurt you! Jae!" I vaguely hear Yunho's voice and realized that he wasn't hurting me and I tried to calm myself. I lay under him, my chest jerking, and my eyes wide as I waited for what Yunho wanted.
I watched as Yunho smiled and let go of me and turned to his back, moving off me. He left me confused and my mind couldn't compute what was happening.
Yunho glanced over at me, "So, what made you do that?"
I closed my eyes, "I just wanted you to feel some of what I went through. But something happened. I was starting to look forward to it, and I got to thinking that I needed you to enjoy it so I could do it again." I could feel my face flush as I admitted this to my husband. Admitted that I liked being the one to top him, and then whip his ass until it glowed red.
"You know Jae, I did like it. When I figured out that you where not going to seriously hurt me, I relaxed and felt the pleasure through the pain. And when you have the baby, we will have to do this again. That is if you want to do it again." Yunho reached out and brushed his hand through my hair.
I bit my lip and nodded.
"Will you come home with me? Will you come back and let me love you again?" Yunho asked and I shook my head no. "I can't Yunho. It's to soon. I'm still trying to get over it. I still need time." Moving my head, I gazed at him, and finally, I see him nod.
"I'll give you all the time you need, Jae." Yunho muttered, even though I knew he didn't like it.
I moved off the bed and stood facing him, "I guess you need to get dressed and leave. I'm really tired and need to go to bed. I turned and walked out of the bedroom, leaving him laying on the bed.
I was in the kitchen getting a drink of water when, Yunho came in fully dressed. I glanced over at him and then turned back to the sink. Yunho cleared his throat, "I guess I'll be going then. I'll see you in the morning, ok. And I'll let you know about Kwong Sun's trail date." I nodded still not looking at Yunho. An awkward silence filled the room, and then footsteps and then the opening and closing of the front door as he left.
I stood in front of the sink, leaning on it for support as a tangle of emotions swam over me.
How I wanted to say yes. Wanted to say yes and go back home. But I wasn't ready...just wasn't ready. My reaction to him touching me showed me that much.
a/n i know this is probably not harsh enough punishment for yunho for some, but, i didn't want jae to feel bad, and keep in with his character.