Dark Surrounds Me chapter 11

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Jae's POV

I carefully exited the cab after paying the for fare and slowly, so not to trip on my swollen, clumsy feet, made my way up the front walk. Not my mom's house, but mine, the one I share with Yunho.

I'm nine months pregnant now, and Dr. Changmin wants to do a C-section in two days. I'm more than ready to get this child out of me. It's getting more and more difficult as each day passes just to sit up right.

Dr. Changmin made the passing remark, again, about how much he missed Yunho's visits. Not that he was being insensitive or anything. The man just missed my husband. I missed Yunho going to the prenatal appointments with me also, but it couldn't be helped.

As I reached the front door, it flew open. Yunho stood there with his arm and shoulder bandaged up.

Yunho had been accidentally shot by the little boy’s father.

Unbeknownst to Yunho and I, Kwong Sun had been exiting the building with the police right behind us to get some air when the father fired the shot that caused Yunho's injury.

I frowned at him as I pushed past him and entered the house.

"Yunho, you know your not supposed to be up and moving that arm. The doctor said you where to keep you arm and shoulder immobile. You don't want to bust that wound back open, now do you?" I went to the kitchen to make us some tea and some sandwiches for lunch, while shooing Yunho to the chair near the couch. Carrying the tray back in the living room, I sat beside Yunho and served him his tea.

Yunho leaned back and grinned, “I heard from our lawyer today."

I looked over to him, "What did he say?" I wanted Yunho to say that he was in jail and off the streets and not hurting anyone else.

Ever since Yunho got shot, I realized what was important to me. To know that the man that I love would jump in front of me to keep our baby and me from harms way was enough for me to know that he was changed. We still struggle, but it gets better everyday. My love for him grows more everyday and the pain that was once embedded in my heart is lessening as the days pass by.

Yunho titled his head and, "He got life in prison, no parole."

I signed and leaned my head back against the back of the couch. "What about the father that accidentally shot you. What happened to him?" I asked as I closed my eyes.

My back had started aching again and I was tired from being out earlier.

Going anywhere these days tired me out beyond belief.

I took a deep breath and held it as a contraction tightened my stomach. I slowly blew out when the muscle spasm lessened and then completely went away.

Dr. Changmin had taken me off the medicine that controlled my contractions two days ago. That very same night I had started contracting lightly, and infrequently.

Since then the contractions had gradually increased, letting me know that the time was very close for our baby girl to be born.

I laid my hands on my rounded belly, the bump hard, moving slightly, now hardly having any room at all to move in.  My fingertips lightly traced the area where my bellybutton used to be, but now, just a flattened out brown spot.

Yunho took a sip of his tea, and then replaced the cup on the coffee table before turning to me. "Oh, yes. The father of the little boy, I'm sorry to say that he got ten years, with the possibility of parole for good behaviour." Yunho leaned back with his eyes still on me. I couldn't help but to shift a little as my belly tightened again.

Yunho moved over to sit next to me, putting his hand on my leg. "Jae, honey. Are you alright?" Yunho frowned, his brown eyes reflecting the worry he was feeling inside as he looked me over. I bit my lip, my face turning red from holding my breath to try to ease the pain.

Thinking the pain would ease if I walked around, I rose from the couch and walked around the living room. It was not long before I realized that walking around wasn't going to work. I rubbed my back with both hands as I turned to Yunho. "Yunho, I'm going upstairs for a few minutes, ok."

I went upstairs and made my way to the nursery that Yunho and I had sat up for the baby. I smiled as I see the pastel greens, yellows, blues and pinks that decorated the room.

I walked over to the bassinet and touched the soft ruffle that went along the bottom of the cradle. It wouldn't be to long before my little girl would be lying in the baby soft blankets. I could already see her tiny head and body. In my mind, she would look like Yunho, even though he said that she would look like me.

"She will look like her pretty umma, and not like her manly appa."

That was what he had said.

My eyes wondered around the room, settling on the changing table. The lower shelves of the changing table were filled with little diapers, baby wipes, and baby powders that would make her smell fresh and clean.

I walked over to the corner of the room and eased myself into the glider rocker. I would soon be holding a little body and rocking her to sleep each night.

My arms ached already to hold her, to hold her close to my heart. I looked forward to changing her little outfits and putting bows in her hair.

I closed my eyes as I pictured myself holding her and hugging her to me. Protecting her. Feeding her, changing her, bathing her.

I couldn't wait until I became a mom.

I caught my breath.

But for right now....

I groaned as another belt of pressure squeezed my belly.

...I really needed to get to the hospital!

I clambered out of the rocker and went back downstairs, walking over to the phone. I wanted to call Junsu and my mom before I left for the hospital.

Dialing the number to Junsu's house, I waited for him to pick up.

"Hello?" I hear Junsu's voice on the other end of the line.

"Junsu, this is Jae." I muttered to him, the pain in my body making me whisper.

"Oh Jae, What’s up?" I hear the smile in Junsu's voice as he spoke to me.

"I'm just calling to let you know that I'm in labor and I am on my way to the hospital." I held the phone to my head waiting for Junsu's response, but none came.

"Junsu?" I called out to him. No answer.

"Are you there? Junsu!" I spoke louder, still nothing.

Finally, I hear a loud, "JAE'S IN LABOUR! CHUNNIE! JAE'S IN LABOR. WE NEED TO LEAVE NOW!" I hear the phone hitting the floor, and then running footsteps.

I laughed as I imagine him running around the house getting everything together but missing half the stuff he needed. Who's the one in labor again?

I hear the phone being picked back up again and Yoochun's calm voice came over the line, "Where are you at Jae?"

I could hear the amusement in his voice and I mentally see his eyes follow Junsu running around the house like a madman.

"I'm still at home. I'm going to call my mom, and then we'll leave. There's no hurry. Even though I know that will not stop Junsu. If you guys get to the hospital before us...just try and calm Su down or you might kicked out of the delivery room."

Yoochun agrees and we hang up. After calling my mom, I go into the living room to tell Yunho that we needed to go, only to see him holding my over night case and he has the keys in his hands.

"Are you ready to go?" Yunho comes to me and puts his arms around my shoulders, giving me a gentle squeeze. I smiled as best as I could up at him and nodded. I sit on the bench near the front door so Yunho could slip my shoes on for me and then we're on our way out the door. On our way to have our baby girl!

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But, when walking to the car, I stopped.

I caught my breath as I felt a warm, wet sensation trickling down my legs.

Glancing down, I see the inside of my pant legs damp, then the onset of another contraction.

"Yunho!" I cried out. Even I noticed the slight tremor of panic in my voice.

Yunho, not being aware of me stopping for he was a few steps ahead of me.

My husband turned, seeing the my tighten mouth and my forehead furrowed, he came rushing back to me.

I reached out with one hand to him, while the other cradled my belly. Yunho slid his arm around my shoulders.

"Jae, what’s wrong? Tell me." He was looking me from my toes to my head.

I grunted as the pain faded a bit, "My water just broke."

Yunho looked confused, "Water? Why would you be holding a bottle of water?"

I stopped walking and glared at Yunho in disbelief.

"Yunho, the water is the fluid that protects the baby from harm while it's in the womb. You know the liquid that they float around in."

Yunho's eyes open wide, "Oooohhhh. But, why are your pants wet?"

By now he's settled me in the car and was trying to strap the belt around my waist and I was fighting him off, "Yunho, I do NOT want that belt around me! And what do mean why are my pants wet? How did you think the water was going to come out from? Yunho, stop! I'm not wearing that DAMN seatbelt!" I groaned out as yet another wave of pain hit me.

Yunho signed patiently, "Jae, be sensible here. You need to be safe, not only for yourself but for the baby too."

I gave him a pout and let Yunho fasten the belt.

I was hurting so bad by now, the contractions coming so quick that I've lost count of the minutes in between each one. I just knew that my stomach was sore. The pain kept coming and coming and I was getting worn out from it. Getting cranky was not something I was known for, but anyone in this position would feel the same way.

I bit my lip as the pain shot through me. My back felt like it was breaking in two and now, thanks to my water breaking I can add the almost unbearable pressure between my legs where I knew the head of the baby was.

I braced myself as another band of pressure built up. One hand on the console of the car the other on the door. My feet planted apart on the floor of the car, firmly. I cried out and lowered my head as the contraction peaked and then fading but not going away completely.

Yunho was driving like a crazy man trying to get us to the hospital. His hands on the steering wheel shaking and he kept glancing over at me, "Yunho! Yunho!" I could do nothing but cry out his name. My fingernails digging into the car, eyes closed tightly.

Yunho screeched to a stop in front of the hospital's Maternity Ward.

Yunho ran around the car and jerked the door open and caught me up in his arms. Turning he slammed the car door closed with his foot and made off for the sliding doors of the Labor and Delivery ward.

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Yunho’s POV~

Reaching the nurse’s station, I hitched Jae up higher in my arms, his arms tightening around my neck, holding on. I hear him moan at the movement and felt the need to hurry the nurse along.

The nurse led us to a delivery room telling Jae to change into a hospital gown that she had laid out, while waiting for Dr. Shim to arrive.

I helped Jae change, slipping the gown onto his arms, the back hanging open. I see his naked derriere, turning I walked over to the closet and removed another gown.

Going back over to Jae, I tried to cover his exposed backside.

Jae turned and looked, or should I say glared, at me through the pain his body was putting him through.

"Yunho! What are you doing?" He asked while removing the gown that I was trying to tie in place.

I frowned as Jae removed the gown re-exposing his bottom.

"Jae, I can see your butt. They will be able to see your butt. You need to cover yourself." I tried to put the gown back on him, but he shook me off.

Jae heaved a sigh and went to sit on the edge of the bed. He braced his hands on the mattress, leaning over, breathing sharply through the contractions.

I went over and took a seat next to him, rubbing his back to ease some of his pain.

"Yunho, they need my back to be bare. That's where they're putting the epidural in at. They can't go through the gown, so my back has to be bare." Jae groaned out through his contractions. I watched as sweat dripped down his temples and off his chin.

I knew his body was working hard right now to deliver our baby girl into this world.

I rose up and went over to the sink and wet a washcloth in cool water. Walking back over to Jae I sponged his face and neck off to cool him down and make him feel more comfortable.  Jae managed a smile as I ran the cloth over his cheeks and down his neck. I couldn't imagine how sticky he felt. I left his neck and brought the cloth around and smoothed it over his back and shoulders, even sliding my hand under the gown to reach were it was covered.

Slowly I slid my hand around to his belly and felt his stomach tighten as a contraction hit him. I was amazed when his belly went from being soft to hard as a rock in a couple of seconds, and was worried about how long it took for the contraction to pass.

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Just as I moved to find a nurse to inquire about some pain relief for Jae, Dr. Shim strolled into the room. The doctor smiled and clapped his hands twice, "So, she decided to come early, huh? That's fine. That's fine. I'm sure Jae is more than ready to have this baby."

Changmin walked over to Jae, asking me to move off the bed and had Jae to lay down. Changmin lifted the thin blanket covering Jae to his hipbones, then he lifted Jae's gown, baring his belly.

I sat on a nearby chair, watching anxiously as Changmin measured Jae's tummy with a tape measure, "I was about to go find out about some sort of pain relief for Jaejoong, Dr. Shim."

Changmin grinned at me over Jae's swollen tummy, "Now Yunho, how many times have I told you to call me Changmin? Please drop the Dr. Shim, we are friends right?"
Changmin put away the tape measure and wrote on the clipboard. Putting the clipboard aside he went back to Jae's very pregnant belly. Changmin palpitated the groaning mans stomach as he withered in pain, "Uuummm. Let's see. The head is where it should be. That's good."

Changmin replaced Jae's gown and helped him sit up on the bed. "Ok, so here's the deal. We're ready. Jaejoong I'll have you walk to the O.R. Once there, the nurse will help you get settled. The anesthesiologist will come and give you the spinal block so you won't feel any pain. You will feel pressure, but you should not feel the cut. If you feel any pain during the operation, you should let me know immediately, alright." Changmin paused, "You did want to be awake for the delivery, right?" At Jae's jerky nod, he continued. "Alright, you'll get the pain relief soon, so just hang in there for a few more minutes. While the nurses get an I.V. in you and gets you prepped to have the baby, we'll get Yunho outfitted for scrubs. He can join us and see his baby being born."

Changmin looked from me to Jae, "So are you guys ready to be parents?" He smiled as I came over to assist Jae off the bed and helped walk him to the O.R.

We paused at the door. I looked down at him. It seemed to me that today he was more beautiful than when I first met him. I don't know if it was because he was pregnant, about to have our baby girl, or was it the lighting. I lowered my head and brushed my lips on his, "I'll be right beside of you." I smiled into his eyes, "We're about to be umma and appa, Jae."

Jae smiled through the pain and hugged me, "You go on and get those scrubs on. It's time to have this baby."

Right before he went into the double wooden doors, the hallway was filled with running footsteps.

I laughed as Junsu, Yoochun and Mrs. Kim ran up to Jae.

Mrs. Kim hugged her son, tears running down her cheeks, "Oh, my baby boy. You're about to make me a grandmother. I've never been so happy or so proud of you." Jae's mom cupped his cheeks and placed a kiss on his forehead. Jae reached out and hugged his umma one more time before he turned and hugged Junsu, who's eyes were red and swollen. Jae laughed at his cousin, "You'd think you were the one giving birth Su." Jae hugged him again, "I'll see in you a few minutes, then you can hold your new niece." Junsu nodded and stepped back. Yoochun just smiled and wrapped his arm around Junsu's waist, "It's ok, and he’s been more emotional the last few days."

Right then a nurse came and took Yunho off, and led Jae into the operating room.

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Jae lay on the operating table with a silly smile on his face. I knew he was feeling good now. The spinal block had did it's job well. I stood beside Jae, looking over the blue cloth that blocked the view of the surgery from Jae. I watched as Changmin took the scalpel into his hands and then prepared to make the first cut. Just as the blade touched Jae's skin, I started to feel light headed, then the next instant everything went black and I hit the floor.

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Jaejoong’s POV

Everything went quite as Yunho hit the floor.

I lifted up my head and looked down at my husband on the floor, "Yunho?"

Then I started laughing. I couldn't help it. My husband just fainted, and I was about to give birth, but it felt good to laugh.

Then the den of the O.R started back up.

"Someone break the smelling salts out and revive the man!" Changmin laughed out as he watched me laugh at my husband on the floor.

The nurse assisting Changmin raced over to the counter and took up a small vile. Kneeling beside Yunho she waved the container under Yunho's nose and he began to wake up. "There we are." she muttered as Yunho regained full awareness. She stood and moved a chair next to me and guided Yunho to sit in it. "It might be safer if you sit here and accompany your wife." She smiled gently at Yunho and then went back to Changmin's side.

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Yunho and Jaejoong

I held Jae's hand as Changmin cut into Jae's belly. I held my breath as the doctor worked.

I kept my eyes on Jae's. I could see the fear and confusion on his face. Not being able to see what Changmin was doing was scaring him. Waiting patiently for our baby girl's first cry was what held him in check.

Finally!

Finally, we hear a gurgle as the nurse cleared our babies throat and then a watery, throaty cry was heard throughout the O.R.

I stood and looked over the blue cloth. Changmin was busy closing the incision and the nurse was cleaning the baby and swaddling her tightly in a blanket.

I felt a slight squeeze on my hand and looked down. "Yunho." I realized that I was crying and smiling at the same time.

I lifted my head and looked at the tiny life the nurse held. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Even with all that womb junk on her. I smiled as I hear her cry at the nurse. Almost like she was saying she had a rough enough day, just let her rest for a while.

The nurse walked over to us and held her out for us to see.

I see her for the first time. She looked like me and Yunho mixed.

The nurse had already untied my hands and I reached up and shakily removed the knit cap covering her little head. I laughed as a tuff of black hair was revealed. She opened her eyes and looked at me, and I caught my breath. She is so pretty. More pretty than I could ever imagine her to be.

I felt the tears escape, but I didn't care. I was an umma!

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Junsu, Yoochun and Mrs. Kim stood before the glass looking at the tiny baby inside the nursery.

Junsu had his face pressed against the glass. He had not taken his eyes off the baby since she was moved to the nursery.

"She's so beautiful. Cousin Jae is so lucky to be able to have a baby." Junsu muttered. He felt his heart hurt at the thought of never having a baby himself. He felt Yoochun's hand slid into his, "It's ok, baby. We could always adopt."

Junsu looked up at Yoochun, "But, it's not the same, Yoochun."

Mrs. Kim cleared her throat, "You might be able to have a baby, Junsu."

Junsu whipped around, "What!"

Mrs. Kim smiled gently, "It runs on the Kim side of the family. The males have a gene in them that allows them to become pregnant. How do you think you were born? Your daddy gave birth to you, not your mom."

Junsu started shaking, "I..i..i could have a baby! I can have a baby! YOOCHUN DID YOU HEAR THAT!!!! I CAN HAVE A BABY!!!!"

Yoochun laughed, "We'll it's a good thing we're getting married." Yoochun laughed with Junsu, but then Junsu suddenly stopped laughing.

"What are the signs of pregnancy?" Junsu looked intently at Mrs. Kim.

Mrs. Kim cocked her head to the side, "Well, nausea."

Junsu nodded, "Nausea. How about being hungry all the time?"

Mrs. Kim nodded, "Yes, being hungry."

Junsu's face was losing color, "What about your belly being sore and sensitive?"

Again, Mrs. Kim nodded, "Could be a sign of pregnancy."

Junsu's eyes went wide, "What about being tired all the time?"

Mrs. Kim looked at Junsu suspiciously, "Junsu, are you alright?"

Junsu shook his head, "I think I'..." Then Junsu fainted, falling to the floor.

Yoochun and Mrs. Kim looked at each other then at Junsu.

"Um, Mrs. Kim. What was all that?" Yoochun asked as he kneeled beside Junsu.

Before Mrs. Kim could answer, Jaejoong was walking slowly towards them, with Yunho supporting him by his side.

Jaejoong stood hunched over from the incision, "What happened to Junsu?"

Just then Dr. Changmin walked up and took out his smelling salts, "That's what I was going to ask?"

While Changmin revived Junsu, Mrs. Kim smiled, "Dr. Shim, I think you have a new patient."

Everyone looked at her, "Who?" Jaejoong asked. Mrs. Kim looked at Junsu, "I think Junsu might be pregnant!"

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Later on that night, Junsu and Yoochun had just left with promises to let the Jungs’ know if Junsu was pregnant, but Dr. Changmin was sure he was.

Jaejoong laid on the bed holding his new baby girl. "What should we name her Yunho?"

Yunho sat beside Jae and brushed his hand over her soft head, "What would you like to name her, Jae?"

Jae thought for a minute, "Chung Ye. I like Chung Ye. Jung Chung Ye." Jae smiled down at the bundle of life in his arms.

Yunho leaned foreword and kissed Jae on the lips, "I like Chung Ye also. That's a beautiful name, Jae."

"I love you, Jae." Yunho kissed his wife on the head as he watched him hug Chung Ye closer to him. "I love you, Yunho."

Yunho smiled, they may have had their ups and downs. He may have been a monster, and unforgivable monster to his wife, and he thanked God everyday that Jae let him back in his life.

He looked down at Chung Ye. How could he ever think that that baby was never his? She looked like Jae and me. She had Jae's eyes and mouth, but you could see me in her too.

Looking at her brought back all the things that I did to Jae during his pregnancy, and I felt bile rise up.

Never again. Never will I touch him in anger again. Never and I’ll spend the rest of my life proving it to Jae. And that’s a prison sentence I gladly look forward to everyday.

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I'm sorry to say that the next chapter will be the last chapter. ^^
i hope everyone likes this chapter (=