My Slave YAOI chapter 16
Yunho's pov
On the way home from the restaurant, Jae fell asleep, his head laying in my lap. I ran my fingers through his silken hair. Looking down at his peaceful face, I hear him muttering about hamburgers and smacking his lips. I smiled, he is so much like a child sometimes. Then I hear his voice change, his tone low and sad. I hear him say my name. "Yunho ah...Yunho..." I listen closer to him now, what is he dreaming about this time? But he continued to talk in his sleep. "Yunho...saranghae Yunho...i love you. Yunho will you ever love me someday?" I see a tear trail down his pale cheek. "I don't think I can live without you. Yunho...I feel...my heart hurting..when I think of you...no longer wanting...me. Yunho?" The tears are pouring down his face freely as he slept. His head moveing back and forth in my lap. I feel my breath catch at what he was saying. Jae loves me! My pretty boy, my beautiful angel loves me. I feel tears come to my eyes, as I gaze down at Jae. No ones ever really loved me before. All my past girlfriends and boyfriends only wanted me for my money or sex, and that was all.
Even my parents acted like I didn't exisit. I grew up in a cold home where loving remarks or gestures were few and far between. As a child I was ignored and grew up with nannies and maids. Turning my head I thought of all the empty holidays spent alone. Celebrating birthdays with the staff, who was more like my family that my mom or dad. Even now they were gone. To where,I didn't know. And honstely I didn't care. They called about twice a month to check in on me, but other than that I don't hear from them. They'd been gone for about two years. What I had seen at Jae's house was foreign to me. I was never to touch my mother, much less hug her. And Jae clinged to her like he didn't want her to leave, or ever see her again.
I look back down, he's stopped crying and is sleeping peacefully again. Jae, maybe someday I'll love you. Will you be here for me? Will you stay by my side, Jae? Would you love me for the rest of my life. I can't just give you love without knowing. I want to let go and love you. You are loveable to me. But..I..can't. Feeling my heart torn into from my thoughts. What's wrong Yunho? You have your chance at love. Take it. But my mind is telling me to wait. Leaning my head back aginst the seat, I signed. Closing my eyes, I thought of our first night again. It had been so sweet, and I felt feelings for Jae, that I had never felt before. No one I had ever slept with had ever made me feel the way Jae makes me feel. His kisses were something that I looked forward to. His touch sends darts right through me. But still, I need to wait, I have to be sure.
Seeing the car pull up to the house I wake Jae up and we go in. Going up to our room, where Jae's stuff had been put, I head to the bathroom, running the tub full of warm water adding bubbles. Waiting for the right depth, I turn off the water and go back to the bedroom. Jae was laying on the bed, half on his side with his arm over his waist the other up by his face, his hand curled. His lips parted and breathing deeply The moonlight spilling in throught the window illuminating his form, making his skin look luminescent.Walking over to the sleeping beauty, I sit beside him. Reaching over I move my hand over his leg and up to his face caressing as I go. "Jae, wake up. You need a bath." I say waking him up. He opens his eyes and looks at me. They were shimmering and filled with unashamed love for me. He smiled and lifted his arms up to me. I wrap my arms around him, lifting him up and carring him into the bathroom. Sitting us down on a chair, with Jae's legs laying across my lap. I slowly undress him, removing his clothing piece by piece. Kissing each spot exposed. When he was completely naked I lifted him again and place him in the warm bubblebath.
Bringing the chair over I sit, taking the bath sponge in my hand, I gently run it over his chest. He watches me with loving eyes. Then he lays his head back and signes. Smiling, I run the sponge down his long legs and up to his neck. Leaning over I kiss him. Just barely touching his lips. Slowly he opens his eyes and smiles.Letting the sponge go, I use my hand to wash him, running my fingers over his heated skin. Then I help him stand up and rinse off the bubbles that was sliding down his slick body. Turning off the water I wrap him in a towel and take him back to our room, and dress him for bed. Laying him down between the sheets, I lay down beside of him. Putting my arm around his waist, I bring his back against my chest and whisper for him to go to sleep. Jae I'm sorry but this is all I can give you for now, I thought as I fell asleep holding him close to my heart.