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[lunaticdead9g]

im so tired of not having any control

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[omgitstonya]

When you were like 200 lbs. you didn't consider yourself fat and disgusting but now that you're 50 lbs smaller you think you're some huge piece of shit. You're not. Neither am I, but I feel like it and it sucks dick. You shouldn't skip Cedar Point cause of it though..Just don't eat for 2 days before it or something and eat a little bit on the 8th so you have lots of energy for walking around. Remember how we lost like 5 lbs. from walking around all day at the Warped Tour? Well we'll probably be doing a lot more walking around at C.P

I hate waking up in the morning seeing how my sides grew a bazillion inches. :'(

[lunaticdead9g]

im not 50 pounds smaller. it really doesnt feel like i am. i feel gross all the time.
im not skipping cedar point, im definitely going but im not gonna not eat 2 days before cedar point, im not gonna eat tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that and so on until cedar point. i'll still have a shit load of energy for walking around though...if not i'll take a pill or something.

im so glad i dont have mirrors in my room to see my fat getting bigger.

[omgitstonya]

It's an obsession. I get up every 6 minutes while I'm on the computer and check my sides. I feel gross and heavy all the time. When I'm walking around it feels like I'm going to fall into the ground any minute because of how heavy I am.

[lunaticdead9g]

its an obsession for me too but i really dont want to see all my grossness. i know its there, and i can feel it, but i'd really rather not see it.