Nothing Stops the Love
Matt's looking for a way out... if only to stop the love.
Digimon - PG-13 - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1037 - Updated: 10-31-01 - Published: 10-31-01
Disclaimer: Allright, take a deep breath and sit down, relax. I have a bit of news for you that will shock you greatly, but it's crucial you know, as I have no desire to be sued.
Digimon is not mine.
Shit! Ok, take a deep breath. Breath, breath, that's it. I know it was hard for you to hear it, but it was important. Don't worry, it's over now.
Ok, so I lied. The song at the beginning and end (well, the exerts from the song) is obviously not mine, it's LINKIN PARK's Crawling. That song kicks ass! If you haven't heard it yet, you should.
Author's Notes: Took me maybe twenty to thirty minutes to write, so I don't know just how good it is. I don't want to say much about it, because I don't want to spoil it, but it is Yamato POV. It's basically written to be kinda confusing, like Yamato has so many thoughts swirling around in his head that he can't make sense of. Still, I rather like this little ficcy, so don't insult it, please. Besides, all flames go to the poor in times of hardship. Also, the fic title is a double meaning. I've always thought that was cool.
Nothing Stops the Love
by: butterflie, formerly known as Crimson Goddess
|Crawling in my skin
|These wounds, they will not heal
|Fear is how I fall
|Confusing what is real|
|Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
|Distracting/Reacting
|Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
|It's haunting/How I can't seem
|To find myself again
|My walls are closing
|{Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
|That there's just too much pressure to take]
|I've felt this way before
|So insecure|
The wind whips my hair around my face as I walk. Absently, I tuck a few stray strands back behind my ear.
It's late, and very dark outside.
I don't care.
All I can think about is him.
'I love you..'
No!
Stop that! I don't want you to love me!
Don't you realize it's wrong? You can't love me...
'I love you Yamato, more than you ever realized'
Why? Why did you have to love me?
I never asked for your love. I didn't want it..
Why?
I guess I should have known.
But I was too caught up in my own feelings to notice anything.
I never even realized it at first.
I should have been more careful.
I didn't even suspect.
Not until it was too late.
I'm sorry.
I walk on, not paying attention to where I am going, not caring.
The darkness inside me rules me, consumes me.
I don't care.
How can I, after what he did to me?
I mean, what reason do I have to care about anything anymore?
Somehow, without really knowing, my feet arrive at the bridge.
I climb up, then stare down at the dark water beneath me.
One step, and I could be there.
'I love you'
Stop it! Stop saying that! I don't want you to love me, I don't! I don't love you!
Not ever!! I never have, not the tiniest bit!
'I love you..'
NO!!!! Stop!!!
I told you not to say that.
Why do you persist?
Can't you understand I love someone else?
Someone that's not you?
Just leave me alone.
Taichi, I need you.
Why did you have to leave me when I needed you the most?
I continue to study the churning seas below me.
It would be so easy.
One little step, and all my pain and suffering would end.
I could even be with you Taichi.
'Yamato, please, I need this. I love you Yamato. Don't worry, it won't hurt, I promise.'
You lying son of a bitch.
You lied.
You said it wouldn't hurt.
It did.
I didn't even want it.
Couldn't you have left me alone?
I never should have told you about Taichi.
It was a mistake.
Especially since he left me.
I should have realized... I'm so stupid.
'Yamato...'
No! Stop! Iwon't let you hurt me anymore!
Don't hurt me....
I trusted you....
I called you 'dad'....
How could you repay me like that?
This pain is tearing away at my insides.
My heart is nothing but a constant ache deep inside me.
I want to end this right now.
Something inside is pulling, dragging me down.
Almost like it's begging me.
My emotions are overwhelming.
I need to end this.
'I love you Yamato'
NO! I don't want you to love me.
I'm crying.
I'm such a baby...
If only Taichi was here.
He wouldn't call me a baby.
He'd call me an angel, his beautiful Angel.
Taichi, I miss you so much.
You're the one person that can stop this awful feeling, this damnable pain.
Taichi.
I want to be with you so bad.
I have no self control.
The darkness is controlling.
Hold on, Taichi.
One step.
It was so easy.
I should have done it sooner.
Everything's rushing by in a blur.
It's so fast.
The wind is whipping by me.
Suddenly there is excruciating pain.
Then nothing.
|There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
|Consuming/Confusing
|This lack of self control I fear is never ending
|Controlling/I can't seem
|To find myself again
|My walls are closing in
|[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
|That there's just to much pressure to take]
|I've felt this way before
|So insecure|
fin
©2001 butterflie September 04, 2001 Tuesday 7:35 pm
Waiiiii!!!!!!! Sorry to kill my lil Yama-chan off, but this fic popped into my head (I won't say what I was doing at the time, but nothing nasty so get your head OUT of the gutter) and it was begging to be written. It's very angsty, and I apologize again, but let me know anyways what you thought of it. I'm very anxious to hear your comments. Also, does this fic scream sequel to you? (I hope not, but if it does, please let me know and give me a few ideas and I might just be inspired to write it. Maybe I could do something about everyone feels afterwards or something.. Who knows.) =^o^=
Digimon - PG-13 - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1037 - Updated: 10-31-01 - Published: 10-31-01
Disclaimer: Allright, take a deep breath and sit down, relax. I have a bit of news for you that will shock you greatly, but it's crucial you know, as I have no desire to be sued.
Digimon is not mine.
Shit! Ok, take a deep breath. Breath, breath, that's it. I know it was hard for you to hear it, but it was important. Don't worry, it's over now.
Ok, so I lied. The song at the beginning and end (well, the exerts from the song) is obviously not mine, it's LINKIN PARK's Crawling. That song kicks ass! If you haven't heard it yet, you should.
Author's Notes: Took me maybe twenty to thirty minutes to write, so I don't know just how good it is. I don't want to say much about it, because I don't want to spoil it, but it is Yamato POV. It's basically written to be kinda confusing, like Yamato has so many thoughts swirling around in his head that he can't make sense of. Still, I rather like this little ficcy, so don't insult it, please. Besides, all flames go to the poor in times of hardship. Also, the fic title is a double meaning. I've always thought that was cool.
Nothing Stops the Love
by: butterflie, formerly known as Crimson Goddess
|Crawling in my skin
|These wounds, they will not heal
|Fear is how I fall
|Confusing what is real|
|Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
|Distracting/Reacting
|Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
|It's haunting/How I can't seem
|To find myself again
|My walls are closing
|{Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
|That there's just too much pressure to take]
|I've felt this way before
|So insecure|
The wind whips my hair around my face as I walk. Absently, I tuck a few stray strands back behind my ear.
It's late, and very dark outside.
I don't care.
All I can think about is him.
'I love you..'
No!
Stop that! I don't want you to love me!
Don't you realize it's wrong? You can't love me...
'I love you Yamato, more than you ever realized'
Why? Why did you have to love me?
I never asked for your love. I didn't want it..
Why?
I guess I should have known.
But I was too caught up in my own feelings to notice anything.
I never even realized it at first.
I should have been more careful.
I didn't even suspect.
Not until it was too late.
I'm sorry.
I walk on, not paying attention to where I am going, not caring.
The darkness inside me rules me, consumes me.
I don't care.
How can I, after what he did to me?
I mean, what reason do I have to care about anything anymore?
Somehow, without really knowing, my feet arrive at the bridge.
I climb up, then stare down at the dark water beneath me.
One step, and I could be there.
'I love you'
Stop it! Stop saying that! I don't want you to love me, I don't! I don't love you!
Not ever!! I never have, not the tiniest bit!
'I love you..'
NO!!!! Stop!!!
I told you not to say that.
Why do you persist?
Can't you understand I love someone else?
Someone that's not you?
Just leave me alone.
Taichi, I need you.
Why did you have to leave me when I needed you the most?
I continue to study the churning seas below me.
It would be so easy.
One little step, and all my pain and suffering would end.
I could even be with you Taichi.
'Yamato, please, I need this. I love you Yamato. Don't worry, it won't hurt, I promise.'
You lying son of a bitch.
You lied.
You said it wouldn't hurt.
It did.
I didn't even want it.
Couldn't you have left me alone?
I never should have told you about Taichi.
It was a mistake.
Especially since he left me.
I should have realized... I'm so stupid.
'Yamato...'
No! Stop! Iwon't let you hurt me anymore!
Don't hurt me....
I trusted you....
I called you 'dad'....
How could you repay me like that?
This pain is tearing away at my insides.
My heart is nothing but a constant ache deep inside me.
I want to end this right now.
Something inside is pulling, dragging me down.
Almost like it's begging me.
My emotions are overwhelming.
I need to end this.
'I love you Yamato'
NO! I don't want you to love me.
I'm crying.
I'm such a baby...
If only Taichi was here.
He wouldn't call me a baby.
He'd call me an angel, his beautiful Angel.
Taichi, I miss you so much.
You're the one person that can stop this awful feeling, this damnable pain.
Taichi.
I want to be with you so bad.
I have no self control.
The darkness is controlling.
Hold on, Taichi.
One step.
It was so easy.
I should have done it sooner.
Everything's rushing by in a blur.
It's so fast.
The wind is whipping by me.
Suddenly there is excruciating pain.
Then nothing.
|There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
|Consuming/Confusing
|This lack of self control I fear is never ending
|Controlling/I can't seem
|To find myself again
|My walls are closing in
|[Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
|That there's just to much pressure to take]
|I've felt this way before
|So insecure|
fin
©2001 butterflie September 04, 2001 Tuesday 7:35 pm
Waiiiii!!!!!!! Sorry to kill my lil Yama-chan off, but this fic popped into my head (I won't say what I was doing at the time, but nothing nasty so get your head OUT of the gutter) and it was begging to be written. It's very angsty, and I apologize again, but let me know anyways what you thought of it. I'm very anxious to hear your comments. Also, does this fic scream sequel to you? (I hope not, but if it does, please let me know and give me a few ideas and I might just be inspired to write it. Maybe I could do something about everyone feels afterwards or something.. Who knows.) =^o^=