The Freedom to Be Different
Tai writes a letter to Matt. Very angsty like.
Digimon - PG - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 615 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-31-01 - Published: 10-31-01
Disclaimer: Digimon is not mine. At least, not yet. Although I don't know that I have very much interest in owning it right now. I'm too depressed to care.
Dedication: This story is dedicated to the thousands of people that have undoubtedly lost their lives in the attack on the WTC&Pentagon, and to the many millions that are suffering.
Author's Notes: This is a short lil ficcy written in the form of a letter from Tai to Matt. Slightly depressing, but not really angsty. There's really not that much to say about this fic. It's actually kinda strange.. ¬_¬
The Freedom To Be Different
by: butterflie, formerly known as Crimson Goddess
Dear Yamato,
Many days have now passed since my confession, and every second wihout you is driving me to the brink of insanity. I miss you so much every inch of my body, inside and out, aches so badly with a longing, a desire to hold you in my arms. I don't understand how you could do this to me, how you can inflict such pain on me, but all is forgiven. I love you too much. I could never get mad at you, no matter how much pain you cause me. However, as you have rejected me and caused me such unbearable pain that I fear I can no longer stand it, I have decided to free myself. The hurt and betrayal I feel right now is just to much to deal with, and I'm tired of trying to cope and tired of failing miserably. So I have decided to write you this letter to say goodbye.
I love you so much Yamato. I would do anything for you, including giving up my life for you. I gave you my heart and soul that day, and instead of accepting them, you simply chewed them up and spit them back out. You shouted at me, called me such awful names. Every hateful word out of your mouth was such a stinging blow to me. I was devasted. I still am. I don't think I can live with it.
Everyone at school knows, too. I can tell by the way they stare at me in the hallways, pretending they're looking elsewhere. I can tell from hearing the whispers in classs, from the way they avoid me in the bathrooms and libraries.
And you know what? It doesn't hurt. I don't care what other people think about me. I really don't. The only thing that mattered (or maybe I should say matters) to me is you. You are my life Yamato. No matter how you feel about me, no matter what you say to me, I will always love you. I always have, and your hatred of me isn't going to change that. I'm sorry I disgust you, but I can't change the way I am. I wouldn't want to. It wouldn't be fair to myself or to you.
So Yamato, it is with a heavy heart and lots of love that I say goodbye to you. I wish things didn't have to end up this way, but I no longer have any reason to live. Goodbye Yamato, and please know that I always loved you and I hope someday we shall see each other again, and maybe then things can be different.
With Love,
Yagami Taichi
©2001 butterflie September 13, 2001 Thursday 12:17 am
Digimon - PG - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 615 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 10-31-01 - Published: 10-31-01
Disclaimer: Digimon is not mine. At least, not yet. Although I don't know that I have very much interest in owning it right now. I'm too depressed to care.
Dedication: This story is dedicated to the thousands of people that have undoubtedly lost their lives in the attack on the WTC&Pentagon, and to the many millions that are suffering.
Author's Notes: This is a short lil ficcy written in the form of a letter from Tai to Matt. Slightly depressing, but not really angsty. There's really not that much to say about this fic. It's actually kinda strange.. ¬_¬
The Freedom To Be Different
by: butterflie, formerly known as Crimson Goddess
Dear Yamato,
Many days have now passed since my confession, and every second wihout you is driving me to the brink of insanity. I miss you so much every inch of my body, inside and out, aches so badly with a longing, a desire to hold you in my arms. I don't understand how you could do this to me, how you can inflict such pain on me, but all is forgiven. I love you too much. I could never get mad at you, no matter how much pain you cause me. However, as you have rejected me and caused me such unbearable pain that I fear I can no longer stand it, I have decided to free myself. The hurt and betrayal I feel right now is just to much to deal with, and I'm tired of trying to cope and tired of failing miserably. So I have decided to write you this letter to say goodbye.
I love you so much Yamato. I would do anything for you, including giving up my life for you. I gave you my heart and soul that day, and instead of accepting them, you simply chewed them up and spit them back out. You shouted at me, called me such awful names. Every hateful word out of your mouth was such a stinging blow to me. I was devasted. I still am. I don't think I can live with it.
Everyone at school knows, too. I can tell by the way they stare at me in the hallways, pretending they're looking elsewhere. I can tell from hearing the whispers in classs, from the way they avoid me in the bathrooms and libraries.
And you know what? It doesn't hurt. I don't care what other people think about me. I really don't. The only thing that mattered (or maybe I should say matters) to me is you. You are my life Yamato. No matter how you feel about me, no matter what you say to me, I will always love you. I always have, and your hatred of me isn't going to change that. I'm sorry I disgust you, but I can't change the way I am. I wouldn't want to. It wouldn't be fair to myself or to you.
So Yamato, it is with a heavy heart and lots of love that I say goodbye to you. I wish things didn't have to end up this way, but I no longer have any reason to live. Goodbye Yamato, and please know that I always loved you and I hope someday we shall see each other again, and maybe then things can be different.
With Love,
Yagami Taichi
©2001 butterflie September 13, 2001 Thursday 12:17 am