Thanksgiving was good. I was sick for most of it, but i didn't let that get me down.

im somewhat happy.

im glad i finally got to see alayna, i missed her, and i miss her now.

im sick

.....

wow...

I need my best friend right now more than anything.

Being numb for a whole day is a very interesting feeling, or i guess lack of feeling. hmm.

so looking back on the past few years, there is only one thing i regret.

it's fucking up something. that is all i need to say.

I realize now that next time, if that ever happens again, I'm never letting go.

dammnnnnniiiitt.

so im sick once again. a cold. it sucks. i cant breathe. yay ( Read more... )

Don't wish bad things, they tend to come true. I suppose that just goes for me though. Everything I seem to wish, or want that isnt extravagant comes true. The other day, I wanted a chocolate chip cookie, bam, next door neighbor comes over with chocolate chip cookies. I dunno its weird ( Read more... )

So i'm in a weird happy mood. There's no reason for it, but I feel optimistic. I think I failed my Government test today, but I'm still in a good mood. weird.

Its cold out tonight, but its the perfect cold. I dont know how to describe it. I like it.

Tairuhhh duhh makes me laugh by the way :)

I think thats all I have to say.

I am numb. I haven't been this unhappy in 4 years. Last time, it was bad.

I'm sinking fast. I don't know what to do. I'm scared about how this is going to turn out. As I type this, I literally cannot feel anything.

I miss what my life used to be. I miss riding my bike all around town and feeling like a cool kid because i hung out with the older kids. I miss a simpler time when I did nothing in school but play on paint on the computer and chess. I miss the times when we would walk around aimlessly. I miss the times when eli and cory would come over and eat all ( Read more... )

School seems to be just flying by. soon it will be novemver 22nd! heck yes. My neck is killing me. I think i slept on it wrong or something, but its fucking killing. Josh wouldn't let me borrow his gun. Selfish asshole. haha Just kidding ( Read more... )

Some things in life just anger me. I dont really like working at the lobsta out here. people dont seem that friendly. hmm weird. and some just get on a little power trip. i dunno what im going to do, but i might not have a job soon anyways ( Read more... )