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[lupin_lady]

I'm having an issue, and don't know who to talk to and it hurts so bad and I feel like shit and I just want to cry and cry and cry.
My life is screwed up and I don't know if any thing can make it better.
I'm so so so lonely.
I just don't know anymore.

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[pegasus27]

Hope you're feeling better. I hate that dark place.

[lupin_lady]

OMG- you guys! Talk about making me cry! Thank you all SO much for your concern. I'm really not alright, but I'm getting there. Here's the story--

As I wrote in mmy LJ the other day, Tim and I were trying things together again. Well things were going great- as they should be with our history. 6 years together- through EVERYTHING! Any way- yesterday he asked me to marry him. And I said no. I froze and I was scared and confused and no was the first thing that came out of my mouth.
I don't think I regret it- I'm only 18 after all... but I don't know.
Now he won't answer his phone, or come to the door, and BJ won't speak to me either, as they are best mates.
At the time when I need my brother most, he has a hissy fit. Figures.

But knowing I have the love and support of you gals, well, thst makes everything seem a little brighter. And I actually smiled at your e-mails, owls and posts.

THANK YOU ALL :)