Another Year

[lupinremus]

I have to say that I am extremely glad to have everyone back at Hogwarts. There is something completely disturbing about the empty castle, it just isn't right. I mean, even during holidays there are still people here, and even if there aren't, you can imagine them just around the corner, and their spirit lingers in the air. The corridors were too

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[allthesevoices]

Maudlin is allowed. In fact, I think it's nearly required for the starts and endings of terms.

[lupinremus]

Starts, endings, and mornings after, I think. (Feel free to interpret that any way you wish; I am sure that Rita shall assume the worst, and others each choose their own shade of meaning, but I don't really care right now. I'll worry about discretion and careful choosing of words later.)

[allthesevoices]

I couldn't agree more. (Let her think what she wants to think, and I'll keep my head down and go about my business regardless. It seemed perfectly harmless to me.)

[lupinremus]

Oh, that was my foot in my mouth even worse than I thought. Merlin, I didn't mean to refer to that, and I was so self-absorbed that I didn't even think of what else I was saying -

Bleh.

(I don't think that Rita Skeeter has thought anything but, nor let the facts get in her way.)

[smith_badger]

I wouldn’t complain about feeling numb if I were you. It’s a survival mechanism, when you simply can’t feel any more, else you’ll burn out. It’s entirely possible to feel too much, be entirely too perceptive, too empathetic, and you need the numbness, the not feeling, else…I don’t know. Something. I hear insanity’s fun, but I wouldn’t want to live there.

As for memories, call me a coward, call me anything you like. But I don’t like what I remember. I don’t like what I became from it. I wish I could wipe it clean. Count yourself lucky you have this opportunity.

[lupinremus]

Zach - are you alright?

I'd continue with our usual vein of sarcasm and debate, if it would make you feel better, but I'm not sure right now if that is waht you need.

And I am truly very sorry for Phoenix, Zach.

[smith_badger]

Fine. Happy. Absolutely brilliant. What do you want me to say? I'll say it. What do you want me to do? I'll do that too. I don't know what I want or what I need, but apparently everyone else does.

Everyone says they're sorry. They didn't do anything. It doesn't mean anything. It's all just pretty words to pretend that they mean something, when really, it's all going to be forgotten tomorrow. And all their stupid poetry that means absolutely fucking nothing, all their little inanities, all their little "Oh, let's hold a ceremony and skip around and throw flowers around" means nothing and I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!

Oh, Christ. I'm sorry, Remus.

[lupinremus]

I don't want you to do anything Zach, except what you want to do, and what you feel like doing. And if you don't know, then that is fine. You don't have to.

Don't apologize, Zach. I understand hate, and I understand the other side of it. If you want to hate right now, then hate. Hate is natural.

[keeper_ron]

Wow, that's pretty deep, you know. Look, we're pretty used to the whole thing, you know. It doesn't really faze us anymore, because there are so many of them, but I 'spose if you're not used to them, if you're not used to the idea of being a target, then it's rather scary. But it's just something that is, and if you're scared of it all the time, you'll be trapped.

And that was deep from me too. Hermione's going to think I've been replaced with someone else. Polyjuice or something.

[siriuslygreat]

I can't say I like knowing some things about this supposed-future, but it's better than being empty of anything. Maybe in another future or world I am, but if that was so, what would that make you? D'you think that you might be a bit empty, too?

I'll be buggered if this potion is making me write any sense. Hate colds.

[lupinremus]

I hate the knowing, but I'd rather know and just have the facts be better ones to know. But knowledge is an odd thing. It is and it isn't, all at the same time, and you have to wonder what truth really is. Or if it is, and then why it is. But that's another set of questions, for another time.

What would that make me, if you were empty? I think I know what you are talking about - not the cold potion, just me being thick - and if I am thinking correctly, then equally empty, if not more so.

[siriuslygreat]

you always did like those unspokenquestions.

hmph. then you should also be sneezing right now. AND STOP TRYING TO TAKE THE LATPOT AWAY FROM ME!

[lupinremus]

They're the best type.

I'm healthier than you are. I eat my vegetables. And I'm not, stop flinching and trying to protect it. You're delusional.