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Feb 15, 2010 12:36

The only way to describe how I am feeling is that I have fallen into a black abyss and I don't know how to get out. The person that usually provides me with comforting words and hugs is the person inflicting the gut wrenching pain. So his comfort makes me cry harder. I am in an alternate universe where things aren't quite right. He loves me still, ( Read more... )

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lupicinus February 15 2010, 20:46:44 UTC

My heart flipped itself inside out when I read this. There's nothing to say. Just wanted to let you know I'm here, thinking of you, and wishing I could offer something more comforting and uplifting.

cherubrock01 February 15 2010, 23:00:15 UTC

Caitlin, my heart is aching for you. I hope you don't feel too down on yourself for taking meds; you should do whatever it takes to be well. I don't know what else to say, but write about your grief here as much as you want to.

cherubrock01 February 16 2010, 00:07:31 UTC

And I know you have closer friends than me, but you can write to me any time or come see me/stay with me if you're ever in Portland.

angetombe February 15 2010, 23:57:27 UTC

Caitlin, I'm so sorry. I can't believe this is happening to you! I was right there with you, thinking your whole future was just waiting one step ahead of you. But it has to be happening for a reason. And better to happen now than sometime in the future. Better to make a clean break and let him go off to Sacramento and you will still have your support group around you in Ukiah. Have you thought about going to stay with your parents for a while? Then you wouldn't have to see Ben every day and be reminded of him all the time. You should take a break. Come visit me if you can, but maybe just get away from everything. It's a totally sucky situation and I know it's not Ben's fault and you don't want to blame him, but I'm really mad at Ben!!

lupicinus February 16 2010, 07:18:13 UTC

I agree with the getting away for a bit. You always have a place to stay in Geneva if you want to get far, far away.

writeyouasong February 16 2010, 01:00:40 UTC

Caitlin, I'm so sorry to read this. I don't know the details but I'm terribly sorry to hear that you're unhappy. Please know that you are in my thoughts, and that you have a zillion people who care about you and love you. And that you WILL emerge stronger. *hugs*