so i realized that i need to get a job. like now. i'm 17 years old now and i still have never worked a day in my life. i don't know whether to be proud of that or feel embarassed. i guess i'm so used to getting things handed to me all the time, even though i don't really earn them. my mom and i had a long talk about it tonight, and she's right. i ( Read more... )

ah so it's 11 a.m. and this is too early for me to be waking up today. i was on the phone with ames c until like 1 a.m. and all i wanted to do was sleeep. it's really nice out though and i want to do something today. i don't feel like bringing my car up to my dad's house today. perhaps al and i can still go to the beach. i just feel like doing ( Read more... )

i'm so aggravted right now. i don't know anything anymore. i can't even tell how genuine and real a person is, or if they have good intentions. in the past few months, or weeks actually, i have learned so much about trust and honesty and i have come to the conclusion that it does not exist. i trust no one anymore and i hate that. i don't want to ( Read more... )

yay for getting ridiculously trashed with friends : )

so i think it's time i update ( Read more... )

Last Cigarette: NEVER ( Read more... )

wow what a week. i want to say i'm so glad it's over, but it's not. i feel like it's never going to end. all the drama and fights, and ridiculousness of it all. ahhh ( Read more... )

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind ( Read more... )

i can't fucking deal. i just can't do it. i thought i could, but i can't.

so today was an o-k day. actually, it kind of sucked. like everyone was absent. i wish i could have missed school today. i was thinking about it last night, but we have like 3 days so whatever. i didn't finish half of my homework, and i overslept today, so i went into school stressed and wicked sleep deprived. school just needs to end nowwwww. the ( Read more... )