alright here goes ( Read more... )

"I am a hostage to my own humanity ( Read more... )

ok im doing a quick update ( Read more... )

life
-they never said it would be easy....

yeah, so i cant find a job. People here give you the run around. its like you have to work from the inside out in this city
its kinda tough i think....but im not giving up. i know i will find one eventually.
Im still working my ass off at the gym. You have to work hard for what u want, right?
My stomach ( Read more... )

Ohio

-It all falls down.
Yeah so, ever since i got up here its been a issue for me to go out because of my stepmom. I am grown, im almost 19 ( in kess than a month) ! and this lady wants me to be home early, and i cant do it. So she basically stated i had no respect and then started going crazy, and "yall" i mean CRAZY! told me she hated me ... ( Read more... )

As most of you know i am now in ohio. I left without giving some reason, or telling you a bullshit ass story which i hope you did not believe. There are only a handful of people who know what is going on with me. Im going to keep it that way. If you were NOT intesrested in my life when i was in nashville, dont be interested now.

I will say i have ( Read more... )

-Homisick
Well, i seem to be okay during the day but i get real depressed and homesick at night and cry alot. Mainly because i miss my friends and my mom. Its a totally diffrent lifestyle living with my dad. Most of you cant understand what im saying cause u never had to go through it or had a dad like mine. But its hard.

-The coach
Dad bought me ( Read more... )

Well i made it here.....safely. Not that any of you fuckers care. I had a hard time last night i must admit. i was homesick, very homesick and cried......ALOT! =\ i dunno why , i guess because i have no friends here and it was around that time that i would be hanging out or even just loud and having fun. and i wasnt... and i missed my mom.blaH!!!so ( Read more... )

-Moving On...
Ok, well i leave in less than 24 hours for Ohio. Im scared. Im very scared. I Dont think its settled in yet that im actually leaving till May. Im packed and everything is ready.....except myself. Its been hard for me i think. Leaving jamall, my friends, my family. Its going to be a tough drive, i just hope the tears dont blind me from ( Read more... )

update-

Ok, so im going to Mississippi for christmas wed and will be back sunday. then i leave monday for ohio.
my stomach hurts just thinking about it. Im exctied but scared. happy but sad. Everything has me under alot of stress right now. Im worried about what the future will being. and i will be in a totally diffrent state, with none of my ( Read more... )