once again im a chicken. i was chilling with this girl and i cant tell her i like her. we where hanging around and talking about religon and abortions and gay maarrige and shit, and i couldnt just say hey your cute and i like you. only because i didnt want her to laugh in my face and say oh my god i would never like you, your uglier than my dog.

i just wanna be held by some one else.

why do men need women? they are here and they know that we need them and they just play. i dont want to have sex with a woman. i dont ever need to have sex. i just want a girl that will love me and let me hold her. but first i must show that i cansurvive on my own. some day i will be ok i think. soon i will be gone because i dont think i will be ( Read more... )

i done shrooms for the last 2 days and ill probably do it a gain tommorow. im going to sell some books to pay for it. but im a dope fiend and im trying to find my next fix. im not sure anymore on what to do. i kinda wish i was younger and shit. i kinda wish i had some one to hold. im going to die alone and be nothing my entire life and ill do ( Read more... )

ive done something horrible again. i cut myself because of a girl. i know so sad. i really like her and all that good stuff but all she does is the meaningless flirting with me and that just teases my cock. when im around her im really sad because i know that i cant get her. and then she flirts and makes my heart just crumble. but hey im cody and i ( Read more... )

i just missed the once in an lifetime oppurtunity with the girl of my dream. this girl is gorgeous. shes a slender mexican girl with not too big anything.i like my woman small. we where over at a friends, and only had enough kill for the both of us and no one eles, so we where waitting for this one guy to go to bed.(her bf) and i was waitting for ( Read more... )

im going diving. dumpster diving. im a man who digs in trash. im better than you. hahahaha. valeris a whore.

my dad bought me another truck. that brings it up to 3 vehicles, yet only 1 works. being broke sucks. it sucks alot.school was good cause i got lunch money. now i get nothing. i do this again when im not so sleepy. bye.

a few minutes ago i was listening to music and oasis- champane supernova came on. i started to cry. all my feelings for ashely came back and i missed seeing her again.she would sing that song every now and then and i like hearing her sing it. i dont know man. i liked her alot. i think i pretty much still do. i know she didnt care for me any where ( Read more... )

ok today was the good type of day. i went to the beach. with frends. it was fun. some day i would like to do it again. mabye soon i got $75 bucks i could use to go to the beach again. need wood,a case opf cokes, case of beer, and a case ofdrugs. sounds good. bonfire and friends and good times. ok going to go.