all my life i've smiled.

[luuuvuuul]

the other day i saw a beautiful light skinned mixed girl walking down the street with her girlfriend. she was gorgeous. there are a few blessings i think we have on this earth: avocados are one of them, so are sunny days right after it rains. i think mixed people are a blessing - i think we are all beautiful, but so few of us have enough love for

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[requia]

I've begun to love my heritage, too.

I think about writing a zine about it often -- about how I 'pass' as white not just on the outside, but how much I've internalized regarding hating the fact that I am the granddaughter of immigrants. My nose, my eyes, my last name. There was a time that I really, really wanted to be a little WASP, with no memory, no heritage, no tongue sandwiches in her lunch. It saddens me, a lot.

[luuuvuuul]

i think this is an interesting thing to deal with, particularly for those of us whose present realities are vastly different from the experiences of our ancestors. it's difficult to navigate that, where you are understanding and honoring your heritage, while at the same time celebrating your current existence and recognizing the differences. when you see a huge disconnect between where you are now and where your family comes from, it's hard to relate the two - but i think it's very important.

there is a great zine called indulgence that i just finished by an amazing woman in new york named eleanor. she talks a lot about her heritage as a white new englander and how that has informed her identity as a radical queer white woman.

bicultural?

[anomia]

i don't think of myself as mixed but i think some people consider me as such

Re: bicultural?

[luuuvuuul]

yes i suppose i think of you more as bicultural than biracial. i never really thought about that before... i wonder if that has anything to do with me using the race "ASIAN" as this, like, all-encompassing thing with very little deviation within that.

anyway, i meant to call you two days ago and i forgot, so maybe i will do that today. how are things, my little lambchop? WHEN DO YOU GO TO VIETNAM????

mother

[anomia]

i leave june 20!!!

Re: mother

[luuuvuuul]

bwaaaaaaa!!! ok!!!! that's 10 days.

indulgence.

[luuuvuuul]

i was wondering if you'd read eleanor's zine. i figured you'd like it. goddamn, that woman is incredible.

[_childreninheat]

on saturday i had to deal with my claim as a person of color AS a mixed person being threatened.

i think we had a brief conversation about this and like... how i never feel like a person of colour, it's like being mixed doesn't really count or something. we're not "authentic" ... blah blah blah fuck everyone but me. and you. and avocados. yes. duh.

[luuuvuuul]

basically.

i'll tell you what happened later. it was really fucked up and i've been thinking about it for three days.

see, selina's solution to all of this - and i think it's a good one - was, quote "this is why you need to kill em. kill em all."