sjdfka;sldjfa;sldkfh. i hate feeling betrayed... it hasn't happened often in my short life but it did so recently --it sucks. oh well, life isn't perfect. the people that matter will always be there and the ones that don't were never really there for you from the beginning, you just didn't realize it till it was too late. man i feel like i had ( Read more... )

tyler called me last night. he took five vicodin and felt like he was going to die. i figure he called me for two reasons... if he was really going to die he wanted to let me know how much he appreciates me and everything i've done and also he probably didn't have anyone else who could help or talk to him. after our conversations are over i never ( Read more... )

i should remember to update this thing more often. so i've been back from washington for about a week now. i miss billy already. this is going to be one very long and tough relationship. he'll be in illinois next year and i'll still be at fucking cal lu... i've slowly learned to despise a lot of things about clu. i've found out that people i've ( Read more... )

i'm mentally drained and physically exhausted. i'm so happy finals are over. now i just need to write my 15 page paper that's due tomorrow hah. I just want it to be sunday. Billy and I are driving up to Washington... SOOOO excited!!! i'm gonna meet his family and spend a week there just chilling before i head back to the reality of work and home ( Read more... )

FUCK

spring break started this friday and this whole week i've been working non-stop from monday till just about ten mins agao...and it's killing me... tomorrow will be the end of the madness after i work in the morning. i have a boyfriend now... he's precious. i hope things go well. i had lunch with tyler the other day and i gained some closure and i ( Read more... )

i have a secret to confess but i can't bring myself to do it. hmm.. i think im becoming happier as the days go by. i want tomorrow to be over with. i don't plan on going to sleep at all tonight. i have papers to write... i'm procrastinating. i only have one more four page paper to write... well three pages left. i don't want to proofread them ( Read more... )

hahahahahahahaha oh life!

i'm really irritated right now... i don't know why. wait, that's a lie... i do know why. i suck at life. i want to just scream and cry and run till i can't breath anymore and my legs give out. i want to be drunk... pop some pills. anything. why am i so angry all the time? what's wrong with me? i'm not a victim... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

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