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well i wrote dave an e-mail...bout how shitty things are...it went a lil something like
well im just gunna be blunt about all this shit cuz well i dont even have the patience to be nice about it anymore. I dont know how you are with the rest of your friends, Im guessing you dont treat them like shit otherwise you wouldnt have any friends. But since of lately you fucking treat me like shit. And i aint gunna put up with that shit...i dont need to.
Like honestly, what do you do when you make plans with me these days? Come...sit in your car...get high...leave. wooooooooooooooooooooooooooohy! what FUN! there really is no point if that's all you're going to do. I understand yeah there was ppl with me last time...wasnt really anything to do...but i brought those ppl cuz i knew that's exactly what you were going to be doing and hell i might as well be doing something with people that actually go out and have fun with me besides sitting on their ass getting high while you're off doing just that.
You talk to me about "oh but it's a 2 way street and we'd both have to work hard on it for it to work, not just me"? It is all me. you dont do jack all...you dont even talk to me! oh wait...my mistake...the two things you said last night "put it back on" and "you better hide, this's gunna hurt when you leave".
I tried to make plans...all you do is sit there and get high. That'd be why i said we shud chill you and me...but no, you cant even make the time. and you still wanna tell me that this's a two way street? no dave...right now its a one way street. one full of bullshit.
if you think im completely off man, then tell me...but this's exactly how it is from my point of view and i dont see how you can say you think something could work out if we both try if you're not even willing to treat me as a decent friend.
so why dont you tell me whatsup then...you know how it is from my end, lets hear yours.
so then he wrote back...and it went a lil something like
hmm..mad casue i sit in my car and get high..
1. i'd rather sit in a warm car then on a fuckin cold concrete slab
2. if i wanna get high i'll get high as much as i please
3. was there anything better to do?
i sat in my car with rejean and got high before you guy's got there, you guys got there just as we were finishing our sesh, so we decided to ask your friends if they wanted a hoot.
they did, so we gave them one. so you can't get mad at me for being high, casue a majority of your friends were too.
and of couse im gonna sit in my car, im not gonna go stand out side and talk to ppl whom i either dont know or barley know any more in the damn cold.
you know i HATE the cold.
and no, i guess nothing will work between us, so im just going to move on, if you'd like to stay friends im cool with that, but dont get your panties in a damn knot casue i can't "make time" to come see you. sorry but i have other thing's to do and i am busy as hell pretty much every night.
oh, ps..i dont treat my friends like shit, that's why their my friends.
and man...i dont know why...but i feel like complete shit. like did it honestly have to take him giving up for me to realize i actually do care or am i just havin troubles letting go of things. That's the really sad part...I had already let go...so im pretty sure its not that. And that's gotta be the worst time to realize it ever. All i know is i dont feel good now and i feel really down...and there's nothing i can really do to fix it...
well im just gunna be blunt about all this shit cuz well i dont even have the patience to be nice about it anymore. I dont know how you are with the rest of your friends, Im guessing you dont treat them like shit otherwise you wouldnt have any friends. But since of lately you fucking treat me like shit. And i aint gunna put up with that shit...i dont need to.
Like honestly, what do you do when you make plans with me these days? Come...sit in your car...get high...leave. wooooooooooooooooooooooooooohy! what FUN! there really is no point if that's all you're going to do. I understand yeah there was ppl with me last time...wasnt really anything to do...but i brought those ppl cuz i knew that's exactly what you were going to be doing and hell i might as well be doing something with people that actually go out and have fun with me besides sitting on their ass getting high while you're off doing just that.
You talk to me about "oh but it's a 2 way street and we'd both have to work hard on it for it to work, not just me"? It is all me. you dont do jack all...you dont even talk to me! oh wait...my mistake...the two things you said last night "put it back on" and "you better hide, this's gunna hurt when you leave".
I tried to make plans...all you do is sit there and get high. That'd be why i said we shud chill you and me...but no, you cant even make the time. and you still wanna tell me that this's a two way street? no dave...right now its a one way street. one full of bullshit.
if you think im completely off man, then tell me...but this's exactly how it is from my point of view and i dont see how you can say you think something could work out if we both try if you're not even willing to treat me as a decent friend.
so why dont you tell me whatsup then...you know how it is from my end, lets hear yours.
so then he wrote back...and it went a lil something like
hmm..mad casue i sit in my car and get high..
1. i'd rather sit in a warm car then on a fuckin cold concrete slab
2. if i wanna get high i'll get high as much as i please
3. was there anything better to do?
i sat in my car with rejean and got high before you guy's got there, you guys got there just as we were finishing our sesh, so we decided to ask your friends if they wanted a hoot.
they did, so we gave them one. so you can't get mad at me for being high, casue a majority of your friends were too.
and of couse im gonna sit in my car, im not gonna go stand out side and talk to ppl whom i either dont know or barley know any more in the damn cold.
you know i HATE the cold.
and no, i guess nothing will work between us, so im just going to move on, if you'd like to stay friends im cool with that, but dont get your panties in a damn knot casue i can't "make time" to come see you. sorry but i have other thing's to do and i am busy as hell pretty much every night.
oh, ps..i dont treat my friends like shit, that's why their my friends.
and man...i dont know why...but i feel like complete shit. like did it honestly have to take him giving up for me to realize i actually do care or am i just havin troubles letting go of things. That's the really sad part...I had already let go...so im pretty sure its not that. And that's gotta be the worst time to realize it ever. All i know is i dont feel good now and i feel really down...and there's nothing i can really do to fix it...