I'll deal. It'll just take time.
went for a run, I feel better.
I guess life without curve balls wouldn't be very interesting anyway. But man, when it rains it pours.
So looks like dad won't have a job come october, (long story, but his term is up and the air-traffic guys are on strike and the short version is they won't renew the term guys contracts. any of 'em). On top of that, I'm 5,500$ or so in debt for my training fees for the year; my car's been stolen, which we can't really afford to replace; my duet partner just decided that God is calling her elsewhere and won't be swimming next year; getting back in shape after folk fest and surgery IS HARD; there's never enough time in my day to do what needs doing; eating solid food is still frustrating beyond belief; my phone bills are unbelievable, which means I gotta get a new phone and a new plan with someone other than MTS 'cause the long distance is killing me....but I gotta do it before I leave... argh, how am I supposed to even remotely entertain the possibility of being able to pay for everything? There's no money, no time, and my "swim twin" isn't gonna be there to help me through it! It makes me think that maybe God is trying to tell me something... but if I'm not doing this, what else would i DO???
I'm trying to decide whether I'm supposed to be a case of "beating the odds; doing what should have been impossible given the circumstances", or "when God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window".
I guess life without curve balls wouldn't be very interesting anyway. But man, when it rains it pours.
So looks like dad won't have a job come october, (long story, but his term is up and the air-traffic guys are on strike and the short version is they won't renew the term guys contracts. any of 'em). On top of that, I'm 5,500$ or so in debt for my training fees for the year; my car's been stolen, which we can't really afford to replace; my duet partner just decided that God is calling her elsewhere and won't be swimming next year; getting back in shape after folk fest and surgery IS HARD; there's never enough time in my day to do what needs doing; eating solid food is still frustrating beyond belief; my phone bills are unbelievable, which means I gotta get a new phone and a new plan with someone other than MTS 'cause the long distance is killing me....but I gotta do it before I leave... argh, how am I supposed to even remotely entertain the possibility of being able to pay for everything? There's no money, no time, and my "swim twin" isn't gonna be there to help me through it! It makes me think that maybe God is trying to tell me something... but if I'm not doing this, what else would i DO???
I'm trying to decide whether I'm supposed to be a case of "beating the odds; doing what should have been impossible given the circumstances", or "when God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window".