fat

[luvpumpkin]

i feel so fat now that i gained the weight back i needed to gain to look healthier.
i wana cry.
i feel mad and angry at myself.
a failure.
an ugly one.

and i don't care how irrational this is.
it is what it is
and what it is is about to change

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tired of cutting everything... it's my fuckin journal, isn't!!?