i sleep so i dont have to feel

[luvrs_n_liars]

things are getting to me...i want in...then i want out...i love him...not marry...wait...now i do....things are confusing me...i cant wait for college...wherever that may be...i dont want to lose him...too many things that are effecting me...and dont know how to deal with it...i love you so much...some things are complicating it...like family...

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IM WITH YOU

[joonestar]

HANDLE IT YOU'RE A STRONG GIRL, IVE MADE UP MY MIND READ MY JOURNAL AND YOULL KNOW. OH I REALISED THAT I NEVER ASKED YOU OUT LOUD, AND THOUGH I CANT DO IT IN PERSON ID LIKE EVERYONE TO HEAR THIS, I LOVE YOU, AND SUPPORT YOU IN ANYTHING. COLLEGE, IM ANXIOUS FOR YOU. FRIENDS (TO CLARIFY EVERYTHING) IVE NEVER TAKEN AWAY. IF YOU SAY THEY ARE GOOD PEOPLE, WHO AM I TO SAY THEY'RE NOT? FAMILY, THEY HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LIKE IT. IM SURE THEY'RE NOT DOING IT TO HURT ME BUT WHAT THEY DONT REALISE IS THAT THEY ARE. RUMORS, OH MAN! I HATE THEM BUT HEY, THERE'S NO WAY AROUND THEM. AND LITTLE BOY CRUSHES, YOU'RE A GORGEOUS GIRL I CANT KEEP PEOPLE FROM LIKING YOU, ITS LIKE TELLING AN ORCHID NOT TO BE BEAUTIFUL. EVERYONE'S ATTRACTED TO YOU, BUT IN THE END THE ONE YOU COME HOME TO IS ME. LIKE THAT SONG SAIS, "WHEN THEY START TALKING SHE STARTS WALKING RIGHT BACK TO MY HEART, SHE CAN TURN EVERY HEAD, AND SHE NEVER LETS IT GO TO HER HEART." ANYWAYS LOTS OF LOVE FROM JAPAN. I LOVE YOU SWEETIE, DO ME A FAVOR, KEEP SMILING IT KEEPS MY WORLD DOING THAT

[luvrs_n_liars]

JOONE...I'M SMILING..... :)

OK

[joonestar]

yeah well you can stop pretending, it gets too many peoples feelings all rialed up...