So it turns out I had a boyfriend over the summer, but I never realized it.

That is so like me.

Another weekend, another man on the line between like and dislike. Smoking, drinking, we converse about our passions, our pasts, and our hopes. As I open up, he shuts down, the fire and vigor left in the wake of some comment laced in sadness, in the wake of another. Recognizing the signs, taking one last look to remember, I finish my drink and ( Read more... )

What a night--I don't think I've been this fired-up in a long time.

Being scared to death will do that though.

Jesus Christ.

I did it. After almost 5 hours of smoking, writing, and thinking, I finally did it.

I should have done it a long time ago.

And now it is time to put childhood dreams away, and go on to the next stage...

What I am about to say is going to seem extremely unfair. But I have to do this. This is probably the best thing that I could do for you at this ( Read more... )

Swirling water and fragrant steam. A tenative toe dipped slightly below the surface, a reflexive pull-back at the heat. Boldly stepping into and sinking, skin screaming at first from the heat. Easing back onto the porceline, adjusting to the juxtapose of  cold and hot against my back ( Read more... )

My new place is awesome--here are some pictures!  Keep in mind that it's a work in progress.
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The driving has started again ( Read more... )

This is a lame repost of a blog I posted on myspace tonight--originality will come along with my new internet service tomorrow, I promise. All my deep thoughts come along at 3:00 AM and my coffee-shop with wi-fi isn't open that late. So the blogs on here will get deeper and better soon, because I consider this my better journal ( Read more... )

I'm not dead--I'll update more later. 

Any day that starts off with a federal offense is a good day, in my opinion ( Read more... )