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as you may or may not know.. i've been pretty sick. i'm starting to feel a little better but aunt flow came into town this afternoon so, i'm not so hot at the moment. my mom won't let me have a cat. ::sigh:: i'm pretty much lost at the moment.. but i don't think i'll be ill for very much longer, i remember what normality is like.. but.. no ( Read more... )

i've basically been in bed since saturday night. two EXTREME panic attacks in three days has been a little much. my body, i'm figuring, has been traumatized. i still don't feel 100%. i've lost 16 pounds since saturday on account of my eating merely to relieve hunger pains. it's surreal, to say the least, to actually feel the weight come right ( Read more... )

::sigh:: ... ima get these beers in me quickly and smoke myself some bowl. the pawt is exceptional.. as always. first beer, gone. fayne and roger were higher than anything today.. b'then.. when aren't they? my pants smell really dank ( Read more... )

i wandered around in the kitchen as my mother left with manet and tried to call sean. not there; called beav. she helped so much it nearly sent me into shock. i miss her. ::pinches roach out:: no time for poetry, i'm getting so sick of the day ( Read more... )

manet is dead. her kidneys shut down, she was beginning to smell- she couldn't eat and just cried all the time. we had her put to sleep at 4:30 today. she was seventeen years old. all day i felt sick, wrong, sad and trapped. ::sigh:: i miss my cat.

wmlm.

following.. it fades. in the way again a time before i realized that there's no such thing. end of light tears to glass, glass to blood thick day, heat grey like sun tripping dry inward in an ash of interest. dusty leg to lip listening crackle, vein of past constricting tunnel muscles: pressure of now, right now and why. this can be funny. ( Read more... )

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i'm a distant ember flung by hate, offspring of lickings pretentious, the underbelly flesh hold mud muscle. attach me rhyme to box, small; black. perpetual and blued. he sits, wade pudding chaotic, be pure ( Read more... )

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