well its been along time. again. i always tell my self im ganna keep posting on this but it doesnt work, i always gets side tracked. but it helps to vent my feelings about things ( Read more... )

a couple days ago my uncle passed away....everyones very sad.. but for some reason i am not. i mean, is that bad? is it so bad that i feel no remorse? no sadness no anger..iv cry so many times before.. chris,phill,grandpa,chepo...why not now.. this troubles me a bit, but the wake and funeral still havent come, maybe the tears will come ( Read more... )

monday was good i guess, nothing exciting.. school was boring as usual ( Read more... )

well its monday, school again.. i hate it. even though i have one period and i come home it still sucks. im done with none trust. i can honestly say i trust tracy, i mean its not that i didnt trust her, its just hard after all the shit iv been threw. trust takes time. time i have given her. i love her so much and i think she is the one. if all goes ( Read more... )

yum, the morning..im sitting here in my boxers trying to decided if i wanna open my door and let in light or stay in the darkness for awhile longer... its comferting you know...the darkness that is.. maybe because iv lived in it most of my life and i still do from time to time..i fear im going to die in this darkness.. alone.ahhh so tired.. i must ( Read more... )

its 2004. woo. i keep haveing these dreams that tracys cheating on me, and when i wake up i beleive them..someone help me please..

ah well its another fine saturday morning..actually the morning will be over in about 10 mins..lets see.. i wanna marry tracy.. yup yup im positive about that ( Read more... )

ah today, well today was interesting..i dont really feel like explaining it all though maybe another day...right now im watching my neice till my mom gets home then im going to get a long awaited pack of cigarettes..jesus i need one soo bad right now..

its been a long time since iv seen the likes of this journal...probably way to long. iv got a new gf, lucky me. word is shes been cheating on me..i trust her to an extent but you have no idea how hard it is when you hear "oh shes a slut" or "oh i had sex with her"...for some reason i love this girl, im totally and utterly infatuated with her, im ( Read more... )

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