The Sweet Breakdown Ch9
Title: The Sweet Breakdown
Author: lycan_cub
Pairing: Hawkeye/BJ
Rating: R
Summary: BJ is broken and Hawkeye has to pick up the pieces.
BJ woke up and groaned. I shouldn’t have had so many drinks, BJ thought. He sat up and looked over at Hawkeye’s cot. It was empty.
BJ yawned and then got off the cot. He put on some fresh clothes and walked out of the Swamp.
BJ walked to the Mess Tent. He opened the door and looked around. “Beej!” Hawkeye yelled over the noise. BJ walked over his head throbbing slightly.
“Here,” Hawkeye said as he pushed a cup of coffee over to BJ while he sat. BJ smiled and drank some.
“Guess what BJ?”
“What Hawk?”
“The Colonel was generous enough to give you and me a three day pass to Tokyo.”
“It was nothing Hawkeye. BJ needs to get out of here and you could use the time off too Hawkeye.”
“Thank you Colonel Potter.”
“Don’t thank me, thank the Padre.” Father Mulcahy drank his coffee.
“No need to thank me at all.” BJ smiled again.
“We have three days alone, Beej. We can get out of this hell hole.” BJ smiled at Hawkeye’s enthusiasm as he packed.
“When do we leave?”
“We leave this afternoon. We get to spend time alone and we can talk about some things.”
“Yeah, I’m happy about that too.” Hawkeye stopped moving and sat next to BJ.
“You’re blaming yourself again aren’t you?”
“I can’t help it, Hawk. I’m sorry but I can’t help it.” Hawkeye ran his fingers through BJ hair. “You can’t blame yourself.”
“I know Hawkeye.” Hawkeye kissed BJ and smiled.
“Come on get packed. We will never be able to leave if you don’t” BJ shook his head and smiled. He got up and started packing.
“Come on Beej, we’ll be late,” Hawkeye said from the back of the jeep.
“I’m coming Hawkeye,” BJ said as he came out of the Swamp.
“We might run into traffic.” BJ hopped into the back of the jeep with his things.
“Hurry on Radar. We don’t want to waste anytime,” Hawkeye said.
Hawkeye dropped his suitcases on the floor and jumped in the bed. He sighed. “I haven’t been in a real bed in months.” BJ shook his head and placed his suitcase by the second bed and sat down on the bed next to Hawkeye.
“That does feel nice.” Hawkeye leaned on his elbow and looked at BJ.
“So we have tomorrow, the next day, and the next day after that. Then we leave the next morning. What should we do with all that time?”
“I don’t know Hawk.”
“What’s wrong BJ?” BJ looked away nothing.
“Nothing’s wrong.”
“I can’t help you if you won’t talk to me.”
BJ pushed Hawkeye down on the bed and kissed him. Hawkeye wrapped his arms around BJ’s neck.
“I want you. That’s the problem. I feel like I’m using you,” BJ said against Hawkeye’s lips.
“Do you want this?” Hawkeye said breaking the kiss. BJ nodded his head. “I’ve wanted this for a long time.”
“Then you’re not using me,” Hawkeye said kissing him.
BJ’s hand trailed down Hawkeye’s side and started to un-tuck his shirt. Hawkeye moaned as BJ hand slid over his skin. BJ broke the kiss and sat back on his legs. He pulled off his jacket and shirt. Hawkeye sat up and did the same. BJ pushed him back down onto the bed. Hawkeye smiled at the confident look in BJ’s eyes. He knew that BJ needed this.
BJ started to unbuckle Hawkeye’s pants. He paused for a second and hesitated.
Hawkeye pulled BJ back over him and kissed him. “Keep going,” Hawkeye said against his lips. BJ started to pull Hawkeye’s pants down knowing that there was no turning back.