I've been working my ass off for the passed week now. I wouldn't mind it so much if it was actually something I liked! Once again, I've found another job with people that are complete ass holes and that are heartless. Dairy Queen was by far the best job I've ever worked at. I get paid what I pretty much did there. I miss DQ because the ( Read more... )

Everything is happening that I was trying my hardest to prevent. I'm hurting someone I love, and it's scaring me. I can't help being the way I am. All my dreams aren't going as I thought they would be. My work schedule is screwy, I can't get all the things done around the house, I can't make him warm meals like I've always wanted to. Sometimes ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of hearing the same crap over and over again. People think that this world is such a perfect place and that everything is going to be fine. Reality check people!!! It isn't! I'm just so sick of hearing that everything is going to work out and that I need to stop worring. Oh yeah, I'll go and do that right away >.< Sometimes I just ( Read more... )

It's been a little while since I've gotten around to updating my journal. Then again, not too much has been going on besides Ray going to school and working, and me working a lot. I just got over a bad case of the stomach flu or what ever the heck kind of bug that I had. What ever it was, hurt and was absolutly horrible ( Read more... )

It's come back and I wish it hadn't. The fear. The sadness. The hatred and the hurt. I had a dream last night that scared me so bad, I woke up shaking and hardly could breathe. I haven't felt that scared in so long. It was so real and I was so helpless ( Read more... )

For the passed couple days I've noticed that my moods have been going up and down. For the most part, I don't really mind it all. I've been working a lot and that's what's really needed right now, so actually I'm to busy to think about certain things while I work. At times I fear that it isn't healthy since I have to hold it in. I try not to ( Read more... )

It has been quite a while since I updated my journal. I've been working like crazy, even with this nasty cold that I have. It seems that I've missed work because of colds in the past, but I'm not going to let that get me down this time! Right now it's almost 6:30 am, I have to be to work at 7:00 am. I'm kind of thankful that I have the morning ( Read more... )

I ended up not going to work today because I couldn't even open my eyes this morning. I was so tired, and still am. About 15 minutes ago I woke up from about 3-4 hours of sleep and I feel groggy as hell. I know it's probably from sleeping too much, but honestly I really needed it because I haven't been sleeping so well in the passed couple of ( Read more... )

Lately it feels like things are starting to become too much. I try so hard to let the little things blow passed me, but it seems like those are the things that stick the most. It's such a big deal that Ray and I are moving that it's all that our families talk about. Don't get me wrong, I understand that it's a lot of worry, but the way they are ( Read more... )

I didn't get around to updating yesterday like I wanted to, so I'll just have to update today =) I wasn't a very happy camper when it came to work. What ticks me off is when one person is doing absolutly nothing, while the others are working their asses off. And he gets paid for doing nothing! Imagine that! >.Not too mention, not asking to see ( Read more... )