Homework, lots. I might actually do my spanish. I dunno. I don't feel up to like anything but going out with my friends or something, taking a night out up to Hornell. Hmmm I was living off sugar highs for a few days there, but now reality is back and I am back to being paranoid and out of it... all the time. I want to read "maximum ride" and I ( Read more... )

Yea… I just cried like a lot. That’s crazy. I don’t cry that much, I tear and I breathe funny, but I don’t really cry that much anymore. I cried for about an hour. An hour. I am like wtf? Yea… my mom and I have a silent understanding. I have no idea how but we both understand the other. Apparently I am a huge bitch to my brother. Even though I try ( Read more... )

Hmmm simple ( Read more... )

soccer practice and church stuff today/tonight.... yeaaa ( Read more... )

I have no idea what has been going on all weekend so far. I think I have hung out with Amanda and Shawn for two days and gab tonight too, with josh and a whole shit load of people lol. And some random guy talked he thought it was cool that I made no sense and wanted to get me on a sugar high thanks to Gabby and Amanda explaining what it did to me ( Read more... )

Hmmm I feel kinda calm. It may be sad or something but James helped a lot the other night. I talked with Cody, James, Shawn, Amanda some, and anyone else who I randomly ranted out on. I feel kinda better after reading some of my old poetry and all that. I feel relieved and worried with a few new things ( Read more... )

-grumbleness- I know, I know I just wish people would stop hinting that "oh well find you someone" or "I bet he's cute" and then eye me. I can handle myself and have been single for practically 3 years... I am still alive aren't I? I don't see why people use a bf or gf to define how happy someone is. I wouldn't be bothered so much by the fact that ( Read more... )

UGHHHHHHHHHHHH never fucking good enough. My brother is pissed, Cody tells me that I don’t try hard enough to find someone to date. I am like wtf!?!!?!?!? First of all no one is looking that I could date, second of all I won’t take any one who is thrown at me. My friends get bf left and right and people are bouncing with happiness and I am like wtf ( Read more... )

I feel like I am so lost. I think I still miss Cody... That just sucks. I think I miss him because he was my last crush and I can't get him out of my head until I like someone new. -.- which sucks 'cause I just don't feel anything right now for anyone. If I do then I am ignoring it 'cause they like someone else or it just doesn't feel right. I wish ( Read more... )

Left and right I see the pain of the people I care about. I can see the care they receive in turn for how badly they feel and I see why they feel the way they do. I can only wonder why we all feel so alone and we all have each other’s back. I find it almost funny, no more ironic that we can all get in fights, be angry with each other and then make ( Read more... )