so yeah im in a state of self pitty,and i hate and it is sad,soooooo as if it wasnt bad enough,that by best girl(nikki)is getting married next year,tiff just called me and told me that shes getting married too,so i guess alex asked her in a letter,and then told her to ask her dad?what the fuck,nkki is 17 fucking years old tiff is fucking 16 years ( Read more... )

yeah so im having an attack right now,i hate this,gerrrrrrrrrr,it getting to the point were no1 can tell,i shack and cant think clearly need to go to bed or eat or somthing,sarah keeps telling i have to eat more that 1 salad a day...oh well,juice,lots and lots of juice.
later
lids

today was a pretty ok day,sarah came home..thank god,i went to chruch today,same old same old,but i tryed to talk to jhon today,and he was just kinda not wanting to talk to me,it hard because most of the time when i try to get to know some1 they look at my personality and open up to me,but not jhon,later his sis told me about how hes really shy and ( Read more... )

so yeah i know this sounds chezzy but (and yes i know many ppl hate this song)i've add one more thing to my "perfect guy list ( Read more... )

sooooooooo,once agin im here,i really wish i had one person in this whole world i could share my thoughts with,its sad,but hey when the powers that be want me to find that some1,i will,but i do wish i could get the idea out of my head,then agin no1 likes being lonly ( Read more... )

HELL YEAH i talked to my aunt mary,she sending me money,ok when you have $00.30 to your name that shit makes you happy,damn i need a job.now me and sarah can go to the show friday night,HELL YEAH,god i want to go out and party,maybe me and sarah can find a place to crash(i hate going home buzzed,mom like to talk to me when im buzzed of anything,and ( Read more... )

yes its me agin,i know i have konw life so i sit on here and type about stupid things no1 but me cares about.but anywhoo,yeah uranium is on,and juliya (our sexy host)is interviwing some band,(for those of you who dont know,uranium is a show on fuse,where this really hot chick named juliya interviwes metal bands and plays only the best metal videos ( Read more... )

guess im ready to go out into the world and start looking for that someone agin,maybe if i do that i can stop sending all my time on here and let life begin agin.i guess i should start with the things i think i want/dont want in a guy,maybe if i do that i wont end up in the same place ive been in b4 ( Read more... )

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i dont know im still in my dark place,it fuking pissing me off,i was really happy there for like the past 2 or 3 weeks,i was so happy i moved back in with mom,you know it great living by yourself,but i think the next time i move out,i'll stay in this state,thats so stupid,i move to michagin cuz i couldnt deal,damn myself ( Read more... )