this is officially my journal of breakdowns... and the like ( Read more... )

yeah not gonna live much longer... stress will make sure of that since its been proven that stress makes us age faster... and well school and home aren't helping in keeping me alive ( Read more... )

blah day... only thing that happened was i stopped breathing in gym but thats nothing..so yeah boring day... what more can i say? well there probably is more just i can't remember....

i've lost it or so it feels..i'm hearing voices again.. they are telling me there is no hope... that my life is meaningless and that i know i want to cut myself again.. its hard to resist but i'm fairing well.. or so i think.. yeah i am for i haven't hurt myself or attempted. i can't there are too many people who would be hurt by it..plus anthony ( Read more... )

am i allowed to dissappear on thanksgiving? i really do not feel like sitting in my aunt's dark living room and listening to my cousins and aunts talk in the kitchen.. nor do i want to go to the basement and hang out with my cousins and their boyfriends/fiance..please i beg of you let me!!! nor do i want my cousins dog sitting on my lap all night ( Read more... )

my poor widdle twi-twi... twilight is very depressed..she has been for the past three days.. and i figured out why yesterday.. its all anthony's fault.. well it is! she's been waiting for him to come over.. last thursday me and mom went food shopping and then picked anthony up.. and this thursday we went food shopping and we didn't bring anthony ( Read more... )

evil be rachel..
wanting to super glue me to a snapple machine and then the floor and then anthony..
what is wrong with her??
she can only superglue me to one thing..
oh and YOU WILL NEVER PISS ME OFF THAT MUCH!! I WON'T LET YOU RACHEL!
and me house is very very very cold.. i wonder if i could get it to snow in here..

oki here's the update ( Read more... )

AJ and Meg stopped by today... me and AJ were soo mean.. we messed with Meggy's head.. we told her Canada is just a myth and so is the UN... mwahahahaha!!! (no offense to Canada and the UN) We told her that the Jersey Devil was real and so is Big Foot and Nessie.... Bob told her Nessie lives in our basement.... which she does..god does she make ( Read more... )

i'm soo bored... i'm home alone, stuck here. i got out of going to my cousins engagment party but i can't leave the house...errr..nor can i have anyone over.. which sucks...woe is me..