LJ Idol Prompt Week 4: What does narcissism have to with me?

[lyndasty]

Comments

[alien_infinity]

*hugs* (if you want them)

I can relate to a lot of your post.

she never should’ve been a mother and never wanted to be, either

I know my mother never should have had children. She's even told us (me and my brother) how we were her biggest mistake. :/

[lyndasty]

I'm a hug whore so I'll gladly take *hugs*. *hugs* back

Oh wow...atleast Momzilla (as I lovingly refer to my mom) has never verbalized the fact that I'm her biggest mistake. Instead, she's blamed me for both divorces (even though my Dad's gay, thus the reason for divorce #1, and my stepdad was cheating, thus divorce #2) as well as every bad thing she's ever done or had happen to her during my lifetime.

As much as I'd love to say that I can't imagine Momzilla ever telling me I was her biggest mistake, I expect her to every fight we have.

*more hugs* You're not a mistake. No child should ever be considered a mistake. I can't have children so I firmly believe children are NEVER mistakes. Unplanned gifts or unforseen suprises maybe but NEVER a mistake.

[basric]

I agree. Well written.

[lyndasty]

Thank you.

[vampedvixen]

My mother was a neglectful bitch, so I completely relate to this piece. She kicked me out of the house four months ago in an alcoholic fit. Since then I've been wondering the same things about myself-- am I my mother? Will I become THAT fucked up because of my genes? Thank you so much for writing down what I'm often afraid to even give voice to. It's a real powerful thing knowing that other people have been in similar situations. For what it's worth, I don't think anyone who writes the way you do can be that bad. You really have a gift of looking inward and reflecting on the person you are, which is something a lot of people in this world can't seem to do. And that's something that I think will differentiate you from your mother throughout your life. You weren't afraid to look within, and your mother probably was very afraid. People who are this open with themselves CAN'T repeat the mistakes of their parents, because they know them and they know the warning signs. Brilliant piece that was beautifully written. Thank you for making me

[lyndasty]

OMG I am so sorry. In comparison, my mother isn't quite so horrible. But I'm glad you know that you're not alone. If you ever need/want anyone to talk to, I'm a really good listener.

You really have a gift of looking inward and reflecting on the person you are, which is something a lot of people in this world can't seem to do.

I would love to say it's a natural talent but it's not. It's the product of YEARS of therapy and wonderful teachers & mentors & friends who've helped me realize that I'm the only one who can sabotage myself and any/all the things I do and want to do. My mother's played a big part in aiding the self-conscious side of myself but I'm the only one to blame. Just like Mom is with all her BS.

Thank you for making me feel a little less alone in the world.

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. And you are most certainly NOT alone. *hugs*

[sweeny_todd]

There is a lot of truth in here. It is sad, and very well written.

[lyndasty]

Thank you for reading and commenting. Introspection hurts but it has its rewards.

[noodledays]

I'm sorry you had to cope with that. your last couple of lines are excellent!

[lyndasty]

Thank you for reading and thank you for the compliment. I have no idea where those last couple of lines came from but I do love them. :)

[noodledays]

it's kind of fun when you can pull out lines like that that you didn't know were in you. :D

[lyndasty]

That RARELY ever happens to me but I do love it when it does!! :)

Also? I LOVE THAT ICON!!!