i've been...okay. i guess i have i mean. life was topsy turny for a while and now i'm starting to really not care...which is bad...because it means that i'm going back into the dark... oh well, atleast i can always trust the darkness to be there. yeah, sorry i haven't been online much. oh, have you read my stories on fanfiction.net...i actually wrote something. i added a new chapter to one and the other is new. i am going to send you a letter soon. hope you reply...to the one i sent a while ago and to the new one. i haven't sent it out yet but i will soon. anywho...still trying to write with little progress...it sucks...i've seen the moon but have so far been far from able to touch her...my muse refuses to do anything than play coyote right now...dirty bastard... anyway, enough about me, how are you? i hope i find you well.
I'm alright I suppose. 18th birthday's saturday. Ain't feeling anything but numbness at the moment. -shrugs- I know whatcha mean about not caring...it sure as hell screwed me over with school. >.> But I also know whatcha mean about the darkness. -sighs before looking at Chris intently- Don't always rely on the darkness...don't let it completely claim you. Twilight is always a chaotic path to tread but at least you know you have both the light and the dark at your side. Might not seem like much...but still don't let the night consume you. And just you think the darkness will always be there...so will I. -smiles- I know you've got stuff up, and believe me I've been trying to set aside to read them. Will you forgive me for being so busy? -gives puppy dog eyes- I can't wait for your letter! And you bet I'll respond to both of them...it's just a matter of finding the time. >.< Anywho, just keep on trying to write and keep on harassing your muse...everything will eventually work out. ~_^ Um... -thinks a moment- Oh yeah! The full mine is
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well, happy early birthday. birthdays are usually pretty cool...but i understand the numbness...so maybe it is like everything else now...just numb... i am just starting not to care...about anything. i know i shouldn't rely on the darkness...it's just that it's always been there for me when nothing...no one else was. i don't think i could ever let it completely take me...i am happy to say that the wolf...which is me wouldn't allow it to happen...it lets me know i'm still alive. i am not so big on the light...twilight are the good times with me...darkness is the bad...well, the numb. i know you're there...it's just the darkness has been there a lot longer....sorry, i don't mean to make you seem insignificant. you aren't...at least not to me. it is okay that you haven't read my stories yet...i get it. sometimes hard is a precious commodity. when you do get a chance to read my fics...well fic and the new chapter to the other one, please review...nobodies really done it and i'm really self conscious so i think that means nobody likes them
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Re: I added youlynxyoukaiJanuary 12 2006, 15:37:18 UTC
i added you back...exchanging stories sounds cool. i am currently trying to get a story to work but my muse is being coyote right now...i.e. a tricky little bastard. if you have any stories plz send them to me by email...or in a letter if you want...just tell me.
O.o nobody loves you...WHO YOU KIDDING? i love you your just a blast to talk to *HUGS* see i told you love to hug you lol *HHHHUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSS* lol
well...i have no one to love me here so i haven't kissed anyone or coudled or anything with anyone. so :P...nobody loves me here. i love you too *HUGS* you're a blast to talk to as well
well if money grew on trees i would fly up there and let you cuddle and hold me and kiss me(WARNING: i'm not good at kissing =+.+=)...lol *HUGS* lol *holds tight*
i know money doesn't grow on trees. it's all good. i wish you could come up here and let me cuddle and hold you and kiss you. ^_^ don't worry about not being good at kissing...i'm not that great myself...haven't had much practice. *HUGS* ^_^ *holds tight*
It's interesting how you and i have a very similar bio except for select few details! LOL!
Anywho, i found it interesting how you write on how you are searching for someone to understand you and figure you out internally, but then your greatest fear is someone learning who you are.
I guess i could understand that type of train of thought... =^.^= Hope you feel better!
that is kind of cool...do you have one of these in your journal? just wondering. i am looking for someone i know i could trust to know me...my fear is that people who i don't want to learn who i am...it is confusing though...but, then again, confusing is my style. ^_^ i am still pretty down but naede is keeping my head above the water. *blushes and hides from naede for embarrasment*
I respectfully added you as well! I do not have an LJ bio similar to yours floating around in my LJ, moreover i was just reading it and was saying, "Wow, i'm also 5'11'', wow i also have dark brown hair, wow... etc." I did take a small LJ bio on one of my friend's LJ however, mostly because i think she deserved the information (we might meet up in Chicago for hot cocoa!) But sometimes i have the feeling that people will start to figure my personality out through the ways that i write and the way that i express, neh? Anywho, feel free to drop on by whenever you wish, i sometimes have competitive contests and fun quizzes on my LJ from time to time! By the way, have you ever been to Montreat, North Carolina? :)
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We could have a story exchange. I read yours and you read my and we offer thoughts.
Sound good?
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Anywho, i found it interesting how you write on how you are searching for someone to understand you and figure you out internally, but then your greatest fear is someone learning who you are.
I guess i could understand that type of train of thought...
=^.^=
Hope you feel better!
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I did take a small LJ bio on one of my friend's LJ however, mostly because i think she deserved the information (we might meet up in Chicago for hot cocoa!) But sometimes i have the feeling that people will start to figure my personality out through the ways that i write and the way that i express, neh?
Anywho, feel free to drop on by whenever you wish, i sometimes have competitive contests and fun quizzes on my LJ from time to time!
By the way, have you ever been to Montreat, North Carolina? :)
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