Comments | lynxyoukai: i feel bad...and sorry for the length

lynxyoukai

i feel bad...and sorry for the length

Mar 21, 2006 00:47

not for any reason other than for the fact that i don't care. i know that doesn't make sense but to me it does. i just don't care...about anything... i read my dear diary story and i don't know where it came from. it was...is awesome. i'm going to write another flcl story...or try. if i don't...or can't it doesn't matter because right now nothing ( Read more... )

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anduril_phoenix March 22 2006, 03:22:23 UTC

I don't think you're a terrible person. And I'm here to listen if you need to talk.

lynxyoukai March 22 2006, 03:45:25 UTC

i am happy you are there for me...i just feel like shit because i don't care...because i've taken off the mask and revealed more of myself. i still think maybe i should have just ran away...*eyes the door conspicuously* i kinda expected everybody to tell me to fuck off...i still feel that i deserve nothing more. thank you though, for sticking around.

anduril_phoenix March 22 2006, 04:05:22 UTC

Well, I'm not going anywhere.

lynxyoukai March 22 2006, 04:27:08 UTC

thank you. *smiles*

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orions_tears March 22 2006, 03:39:57 UTC

I think you need to be glomped. -supermegaglomp-

lynxyoukai March 22 2006, 03:45:51 UTC

smiles...thanks. i'm glad another person decided to stick around...even if i don't deserve it.

orions_tears March 22 2006, 03:54:52 UTC

well...whether you believe you deserve friendship or not...you have mine...and you have me through thick and thin...and guess what...I can still feel attraction for guys. So now that has my life all...in a mess at the moment...oh and rejection hurts like hell...especially when the same person does it a second time... -hugs tightly-

lynxyoukai March 22 2006, 04:16:05 UTC

i am happy to have that...i hope i truly do have your friendship through thick and thin...i could always use it. i've never really had the chance to be rejected by the same person more than once...i usually just drop out of the life of someone who leaves me... -hugs back-

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elira_wiken March 29 2006, 00:54:25 UTC

I will try to be around as long as I can. Sometimes removing our masks are hard and we always wish to put them back on. I made my journal public in hopes to remove my mask that I have for so long hid behind. You deserve friendship. As long as you don't try any push me away more then once I will be here. I know sometimes we can't help if we start to do that and I will let you know if I am feeling pushed. I don't know about you, but when I get pushed enough I start to feel as if I am not wanted as a friend and I disappear. I am glad we added each other. Just be you.

Did I make any sense?

lynxyoukai March 29 2006, 06:03:02 UTC

yeah, you're making sense. it does often seem easier to hide behind a mask...for everyone. it is better not to though...i mean really, hiding behind a mask isn't any way to live. i hope someday i do see the something in me that other people do...see something that makes me worthy of friendship...of love. as i am currently i do not think i do deserve such. i am unlikely to push you away...the only time i really push is when someone delves to far into me or when someone tries to change so do not seek too much knowledge too quickly or ask me to change. if i will ever change it will be in my own time. if you ever need to talk or anything please ask me, i may not be very good at speaking but i'm great at listening. oh, i'm also glad we added eachother...and the mask is off, so i am going to be me.