Comments | lynxyoukai: gonna make myself do this

lynxyoukai

gonna make myself do this

Jul 17, 2006 05:00

Comments 12

drone_dragon July 17 2006, 15:24:26 UTC

Acceptance. It is something that I believe will make you feel better about yourself in all these regards. Accepting that you are an empathetic person who feels guilty occasionally, accepting that you have an interest in receiving pain (possibly linking to the first paragraph on feeling shitty about things ((Maybe you like it sometimes?))), and also acceptance that you are comfortable with your choice of religion and that it makes you feel comfortable meditating or placing your spiritual energy into something. There are many religions after all due to variation, adjust your worship to what feels right to you the best, there is no harm in that, neh?

Take care. I know some days can be harder than others.

lynxyoukai July 18 2006, 05:31:05 UTC

I have heard the acceptance speach before...but thank you. I know you care about me...I mean, if nothing more, you read through all my shit. I always feel guilty...but I kinda know why. I mean, I feel their pain so I think in some outlandish way that I had some part it causing it or should have some part in fixing what ails the one in pain...and...when I don't do anything I just feel worse, you know? I am comfortable with my religion...but...but as much as I do enjoy solitude it is nice to have someone to comfort me...to talk to...I'm sure everyone can relate to that. I do accept my interest in recieving pain...though I'm too timid to ever ask for it...just keep it packed away in fantasy land. Hey, maybe that one person for me...the one who doesn't deserve love either will be down with making me bleed. Thanks for the words of wisdom...I'll try to take them to heart...though...I rarely change.

shealakiah July 18 2006, 01:37:53 UTC

I know there's a lot of pain in the world, but that's not all there is to life. I can tell you that nine times out of ten, I'm upset or angry, and all I want to do is shake somebody and scream at them. It's hard sometimes, but if you ever get to vent, you feel a lot better.

As for writing, I know the feeling. Boy, do I ever. I haven't written anything since I graduated, and that was in May. Pathetic. But, sometimes you just get so busy that you lose motivation to write and need a boost. I can tell you honestly that watching a movie or reading an awesome book may give you an idea...and I also know that keeping a handheld journal handy is a good thing. Trust me. You have no idea how much of a best friend they can be.

If you ever need to talk, I have YIM (aku_otaku0924...although I'm thinking of making a new one). And I can try to help you out with your writing, if I can. Maybe I can introduce you to some of my writing friends...I mean, if you want. Talk at ya later, Bro.

lynxyoukai July 18 2006, 05:59:30 UTC

I lot of my life is pain...sorrow. Of course, I think that has a lot to do with my empathy. I know venting helps out...I know I would have killed someone by now if I never vented...though I don't vent in a "productive" manner usual. I mean when I get into a fervorent writing session I'm venting but it is so rare that I really get out a real writing session. Usually I end up exploding...I know, bad. *hits nose with newspaper ( ... )

orions_tears July 18 2006, 21:23:58 UTC

-hugs tightly-

lynxyoukai July 18 2006, 22:42:48 UTC

-smiles and hugs back- Sometimes that's all we need.

sushi_girl3101 July 24 2006, 11:46:49 UTC

Hi there.......I haven't visited your journal for ages, so I thought I'd pop in and see how you are. You are not very good, it seems. *hugs* Believe me, I know just how you feel, because in many ways I feel exactly the same. I'll be honest and admit that I don't really understand about your religion and who Gaia is, but I completely understand your loneliness and depression. Believe me, I've felt lonely many times and I've also felt like every time I'm in a relationship, I get freaked out and insecure and stuff it up. I've found that the key is just to keep trying and trying to be as comfortable as possible with people. You said that you feel shitty when you're around other people and from a lot of the things you say, I sort of get the feeing that you might have some kind of social anxiety or social phobia. It's like, you really really want to be around people and you especially want to have someone to love, but at the same time you're too scared to get close to people. That's exactly how I always feel. I suffer from pretty bad social ( ... )

lynxyoukai August 27 2006, 02:32:57 UTC

God, you are such a good person. How can you not have someone loving you right now. I love you and I've never even met you, I certainly hope that doesn't make me seem to crazy stalker-ish. You are such a good person. I guess social anxiety/phobia could have something to do with my problem...but...I doubt that is what messed my relationships up. I feel I am quite open in relationships...I mean there are some things I keep a little more locked up but I am quite open, extremely open compared to my normal stance. I mean one of my exes was just done with me (she had been cheating on me) and the other couldn't deal with the distance. Hmm, thank you for the help anyway. You are really amazing. Thanks for dropping me a line. I would definately fall completely in love with you and do my best to give you the best, as you deserve it, if I was close to you.

malie_girl August 16 2006, 21:02:27 UTC

I know this isn't the best place to leave a comment like this, but I found you in a pen-pal community. I'm Mallory and I'm only 15. I act much older most of the time though. You seem really interesting. And I wouldn't mind exchanging mail with you. Whatever kind of mail you want to write. You know kind of bounce your ideas off of me, or we can just talk.
Plus I understand most of what your saying in this mini book you decided to write.
I don't really use my LiveJournal much anymore, but sometimes I do.
If you decided that writing to me wouldn't be so terrible. Then email me at SwtCandyM03@aol.com (that's a zero before the 3) and I'll give you my address, and you can decide what to write. I really am open to almost everything, and I'm easy to talk to.
So...I just wrote my own little book, but I really hope you answer this and decide to write me.

Much Love,
Mallory

lynxyoukai August 26 2006, 20:29:30 UTC

You sound like an interesting person too. I would definately like to exchange words. Sorry again; I just checked the comments here and saw yours. I added you to my friends list...hope you do the same. Drop me a line if your still up for exchanging and what not. Hope to hear from you soon.

Et moi,
Chris

malie_girl August 26 2006, 23:08:55 UTC

Of course I'm still up for exchanging. I'll send you my address in a couple of minutes. I'm trying to do a zillion things all at the same time and that complicates things. Anyway, hope to hear from you soon.

Much Love,
Mallory.

lynxyoukai August 27 2006, 02:16:19 UTC

I will definately send you something as soon as I can. I still gotta send a call out to a butterfly friend of mine. I will definately send you something soon though.

Et moi,
Chris