not sure (kinda a double post...sorta/kinda same thing)

[lynxyoukai]

Not sure why I decided to post. Not sure why I'm feeling down/mad. I...just did and just am. Life hasn't really been particularily bad but, for whatever reason, I'm in a bad kinda mood. Everything just sucks right now. I keep thinking about how nice cutting would be...I know, stupid. I find myself thinking about what it'd be like...how sweet would

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[drone_dragon]

Listening to terribly heavy music always cures me of those urges. I hope you find the answers you seek and that you decide to stick around. It would hurt really bad to lose a friend like you. If you ever need someone to listen to you, let me know.

::hugs kindly::

[lynxyoukai]

I'm not into music much...but thanks for the attempt. Writing can help sometimes...don't worry about it anyway. I'd never kill myself...I've said it before and I'll say it again, my sorrow isn't worth other people's pain (meaning as long as people care I will endure). Thanks for the offer...maybe we can talk later or something...I'm working right now.

*hugs back*

[orions_tears]

Oh lynx... -holds you as close as I can to my heart- I wish...I had some enlightening wisdom to give you...some comforting words to soothe you. But...I...do you fear the dark? Of surrendering to it...of walking through it...because you think you'll be alone? Darlin', if this is so, you must remember...that darkness...as difficult as it may be...is necessary to growth...especially spiritually. I feel...you are coming close...to awakening fully? I remember how tumultuous it was for me, even a year ago. But yeah...I could be dead wrong. But the darkness is not bad...we just cannot control our sight...and the unknown combined with the loss of control...well it's harder than hell. But yeah...cutting...I wish I knew what to say...it pains me so to think that you would consider it. But...in my heart of hearts...I trust you will make the right decision. Love ya, lynx...

My storm has passed for now...thank you for caring. -hugs you ever closer and kisses your temple- Take care...

[lynxyoukai]

-curls up next to your heart- I am sorry to put you in pain...I really am. I never meant to do that while writing this...I never mean to hurt anyone. It would be great if it was only so easy and someone, anyone just had those words of wisdom that turn everything around...turn darkness into light but, sadly, no one does. Do I fear the dark? Good question...I don't know. I find solace in the dark...I fear being without it...and fear being in it. I fear that if I really embrace the dark I'll leave...I'll be gone...lose myself there. Perhaps...perhaps just past the oncoming darkness is wisdom...but...but I fear I won't make it...I will get lost in the dark. Again, I am so sorry to hurt you... It's just that...that sometimes I want that pain...to feel something more than my sorrow...if only for a little while. Love ya too, butterfly...

I will always care butterfly, and I am happy the storm has passed. If you ever need help finding your way, let me know. I will always do whatever I can to help you. -hugs back-

[anduril_phoenix]

*hugs*

[lynxyoukai]

*hugs back* Thank you for caring...even if I don't deserve it. Oh, and good luck on getting the job. ^_^

[lynxyoukai]

Also, don't worry 'bout me...I'll be alright.

[anduril_phoenix]

You do deserve it. And thanks.

it's me...butterfly

[naede]

yep me still alive and in my storm its not as bad as before but it has it's moments of gettin worse....i miss you sooooooooo much it's unbearable...and it feels like there is nothing i can do