It's late and I should be sleeping. I had a cigarrette and put a laser to the smoke cloud. My little brother built a wood plane and Jeff and I watched Memento, a great movie. Tomorrow at seven I have to be awake... Cabin Fever by Nick Cave is playing right now in the computer. Today I spent the whole day editing a radio capsule for L. My Cool Edit ( Read more... )

Today I went to the Foreign Affairs Office and had a smoke at 7:00 AM. It was awful. I must switch cigarrette brands. I tried to smoke American Spirits, but I found myself missing the cyanide and the tar. I had McDonald's hot cakes for breakfast and spent all morning and part of the day in L's house, alone, editing her Radio homework. I just can't ( Read more... )

Today I crashed my car. It was incredible. I passed the green light and this white car appeared from nowhere and I couldn't stop. I hit the side, near the back of the car. It tore the face of my car and it went away as fast as it had appeared. I continued as if nothing had happened. Weird.

47. At what age do you think you'll live to be: If i make it to 55 I would be cool.
48. Where do you want to live when you're 35: My own house in Nice City.
57. What color do you think your hair will be when you're 50: Black with lots of grey hairs.
58. Do you think you will still have the same personality when you're 60: No. It will be worse  ( Read more... )

Tonight I had dinner with her at a fine French Restaurant here in Nice City. I had a crépe aux champignons fromage and she had shrimp mignon... Then we went to an Air Supply concert... and then we got lost. Tomorrow I'll be back in Tucson, and I will be filled with more and more difficult questions.

I was let go from the Arizona Daily Wildcat last Wednesday. I was in my Modern Literature class and my cellphone strated buzzing.

"Hello", I said ( Read more... )

I'm in Nice City and I feel so confused I don't know what to do. She number one is a burden too heavy to endure. She number two is a paradise lost forever. I lost her long time ago and nothing will bring her again. She number three is more real in my head than by herself. Three days ago she called me and then I knew how different she was from the ( Read more... )

She hasn't arrived from Guadalajara and I don't know how to receive her. Today I wrote a letter for that one who shall come and signal the new direction of my life. Now I must recognize I have a problem. My feelings, as they are real, materialize in constant tiredness and insomnia. Erys called me. It has been a long time since we talked. She's ( Read more... )

My head is about to burst into flames. Now I know something has changed here. My fingertips are freezing, my cheeks are sieged walls. Her words are a hollow space where all things find their place... Her loneliness is a twin brother of mine, and she's so unfairly alone. I don't know why I think, but I think, and I don't know in which way I am ( Read more... )

F is going away today at 8:00 AM. I should sleep a little, for I will drive him to the airport in a few hours ( Read more... )