[permanon]

[lyrica]

permanon post
Is there something you need to get off your chest? Spill your heart out here, anon. Have a problem with me? Shoot at me! I'll listen to anything you have to say with an open mind. IP logging is off, of course. ♥

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[anonymous]

Sometimes I feel like disappearing.

[lyrica]

why is that, anon? :(

[anonymous]

I feel like I contribute nothing to anyone and that no one would actually miss me if I was gone or if they did, they'd easily get over it.

[lyrica]

i can tell you with certainty that that isn't true. i would miss you, and i'm willing to bet that many others would too. it's often hard for us to realize the way we affect people, or the role we play in someone else's life; in fact, most of the time we never know. so even when we believe that no one would miss us if we left, that's simply not true. there will always be someone wondering "where did ______ go? D:" you're no exception, anon; you're special to someone out there, if not several people (i'm willing to bet on the latter).

i can't quite tell who you are, anon, so it's hard for me to elaborate, but i repeat: i would miss you if you left. ;_; i know it's a meager sentiment for someone who feels that way (i've been there, done that, continue to do that at times), but i'm thinking of you.

[anonymous]

sometimes I get the sinking feeling that I'm... too normal/well-adjusted for the internet? it kind of sucks, because for as much as I love graphic design and fandom-related things I just don't fit in like the rest. it's almost like I don't have enough drama/psychosis to keep people interested; or to truly be a support to online friends.

I was always way better at being a friend offline anyway, but I don't seem to have any of those anymore and.. I am slowly coming to realize all the ones I had; I haven't really 'had' in years. high school is over, after all. they've moved on now and so should I. It's just really lonely, now.

I just.. really wish I had someone to share things with again. this break is probably just making me restless.

[lyrica]

well, i believe you may be a bit too well-adjusted for livejournal, rofl. a lot of people with all kinds of issues and histories tend to congregate here, because people here tend to be much more understanding about things like mental illness and detrimental life situations in my experience.

in all honesty, anon, if they were your friends...just because high school ends doesn't mean you should abandon your friendship, right? it's natural if they fade out due to circumstance and such, but just because high school ended doesn't mean you need to "move on" from a friendship unless it was a casual sort of thing in the first place

[anonymous]

I TRY TO BE ~BFFS~ WITH PEOPLE ON LJ. I USED TO COMMENT LOADS, BUT NOBODY WOULD REALLY RECIPROCATE. NOW I DON'T SEE THE POINT OF COMMENTING SO MUCH ANYMORE. EVEN IF I SHOWED LOADS OF INTEREST, THERE'D ALWAYS BE SOMEONE PREFERABLE TO ME. >:(

i-i just want lj friends ok.

[anonymous]

ARE YOU ME.

I comment all the time but I have no super-close lj friends. :(

[anonymous]

sh-shall we de-anon for each other? WE CAN BE EACH OTHER'S SUPER LJ FRIEND. ♥

[lyrica]

if there's something i've learned in my (comparably short) time on LJ, it's that you can't connect with everybody the way you want to. there are some people where no matter how often you comment or how much you extend the effort, they're not going to want to be in it for the long haul. it's not a bad thing, anon - that's the way it goes IRL as well. have you tried connecting to LJ friends outside of LJ, like on Plurk/Twitter/MSN/AIM/etc? communicating on places like that can help loads in building friendships, as opposed to just the occasional comment on someone's entry.

AT LEAST YOU HAVE ME, ANON (ﾉ´∀`*)ﾉ /SHOT

[anonymous]

I am so obvious but I'm going to pretend I'm not and stay anon.

I'm having a really shitty day so far. I p. much woke up feeling anxious and crappy and like cutting and it's been like 4 hours and I still feel like that. If I don't cut, I will probably be a mess at work, which is no good because work already makes me anxious, and I am a wreck right now as it is. If I do, my boyfriend will probably be disappointed in me, and I've been hard to deal with because of anxiety and stuff lately. And I'm worried that because I'm being hard to deal with he'll want to break up with me because his last girlfriend had cutting issues and was also hard to deal with. And I feel really bad for stressing him out, but I promised him I'd tell him, and I don't want to lose his trust by lying to him.

[lyrica]

i'm sorry to hear that, anon. it takes the self-control of a saint to abstain from cutting when you feel the need to (something i've learned from experience, sadly). i'm pretty terrible at calming people down and i don't know much about your specific case, but one suggestion i can give you is to breathe. i sound really corny right now, but slowly inhaling through your mouth and exhaling through your nose can assuage your anxiety even by a minuscule amount, which is better than nothing

[anonymous]

tara. ever since i got with my boyfriend...

I'VE GROWN IN LOVE WITH TOM HARDY EVEN MORE.

they have similar body structures, btw.

[lyrica]

YOU ARE SO SEE-THROUGH IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY

but there is nothing wrong with being in love with Tom Hardy bb. EVEN THE GUYS WANT HIM.

[anonymous]

LMFAO WHO AM I THEN >:(

oh bb i know, i know. even my boyfriend approves of my liking him haha!

LMAO LMAO THAT TROPE. THAT TROPE. IS SO HIM.

[lyrica]

hi overheads

i will quietly jump off a bridge if this isn't you L M A O