Sorting some things out

[lyricalib]

I have no idea how this happened. One minute I'm sure of when everything is happening and how, the next every accompanist imaginable has declined and my dates won't work. Now it's looking like my recital is going to be exactly four weeks from yesterday. This can't happen.. I don't feel like there's any way I'll be ready in that amount of time. I'm

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[mccaucasianghst]

I think being someone who always thinks about other people first makes it really hard to not take things personally; you just kind of assume that they've already thought about how it would affect you because that's what you would do and it doesn't make sense to go about it any other way. Fact of the matter is that most people are just too completely wrapped up in their own little world to have even thought about you in the first place...it's nothing against YOU personally; you're just yet another person who happens to be making life OH SO DIFFICULT for them at that particular moment so you get to be the target of their frustration. I think that people with high levels of emotional intelligence (i.e. people who are always able to see things from someone else's perspective and are genuinely empathic) are just as rare as "traditional" geniuses (and for someone to be gifted with both types is even more rare). I often forget that I'm in the top fraction of a percent of the world intellectually and that most people really AREN'T stupid,

[lyricalib]

Personality tests and the like - actually psychology in general has always been interesting to me. And it's for the reason you mentioned - gaining an understanding of yourself and other people; some of the stuff you realize is pretty eye opening. I am INFJ, so we are pretty close. :) I remember doing this type of self-assessment a year or so back in a sorority meeting, because a bunch of the girls were throwing (not literal) punches at each other and the atmosphere got pretty bad. Forcing us to talk about our own personalities and start understanding each other on a deeper level was supposed to diffuse the situation, but I guess it's not for everyone. I tend to just sit back and observe when stuff like this happens and only speak up when someone crosses a major line, but that's just me. I hate conflict. It eats at me and makes me feel sick for days, until it's either resolved or it disappears on its own. I guess that's why I tend to be pretty passive aggressive. Just now while I was sitting at the helpdesk at school, someone in the

[lyricalib]

Yeah, that does make sense. I have noisy neighbors who cause the same problem.. I lie in bed trying to sleep (I work a lot of nights in addition to my day job, so I sleep during the day a lot) and I'm just sitting there letting the problem stew. At first, it's anger because they're not considerate enough to keep the music at a respectable level. Then it becomes fear of what would happen if I went to try and talk to them about it, and not just normal fear, I think of EVERYTHING. I think of them saying "yeah okay" and brushing me off, I think of them claiming their music isn't loud and ignoring me, and yes, I think of them flying off the handle at me or worse, getting violent