... taking your advice and looking on the bright side.

i have gone out every night since i've been back from Tennessee.

my hair is a nice new shade, of Plum.

I keep thinking about that boy from Memphis.

i wont worry my life away....

im pretty sure i met my soulmate yesterday. I was walking around downtown memphis, and I saw some people singing ( Read more... )

i was thinking about all the hurtful things that have been said to me in the last month. things that i will never forget ( Read more... )

these people are dead to me


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in the last hour, i have purposely picked a fight with 4 people whom I would die without.

why?

I wanted to push them away

because?

I was afraid that after this is all said and done, i'll be alone.

doesnt make much sense. I knew I was crazy.

your the one "mistake" i really didnt mind.

men shock the hell out of me.
they really do.

it just amazes me how icy they can be to our feelings.

we'll stand by you when your crying or when your upset, but if we start to feel upset or lonely or scared. Were on our own. Cause God forbid, you actually consider our feelings.

im not talking about all men though ( Read more... )

i feel very alone.

i went from feeling really great about this, and that it would work out, and I could make it. to feeling "vindictive" and feeling like i did this. even though i didnt. it kind of sucks.

"he's not going to be there. your going to be taking care of it, and he's going to be doing whatever he wants"

that really pisses me off ( Read more... )

let me describe: first, my lungs get hard and my breath gets shallow. The stiff feeling spreads through the bottom of my lungs to my middle abdomen. I try to breath from my diaphragm, or my belly, but the air won't come through. My stomach starts to feel the way it does when you take a nap right after eating lots of candy - when you wake up, you ( Read more... )

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind ( Read more... )