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well im back from bible study..and im happy how it makes me feel..puts me in an excellent mood..so thru this study im gettin a better insight on life and how i should be..so i deleted my previous entry not because the person wanted to make me feel intimidated..or like i was writing stuff in here...but bcuz God is testing us all the time..maybe me and sum one are fighting to see how we'll handle it or how ill handle it..and personally if He sees how i react...it has to be good..so basically instead of causing ne furthur turmoil..im goin to be the stronger person..and say im sorry..it was neither of our faults..its jus a friendship that we let blink right in front of our eyes..its like a plant.not to sound dumb...but plants need water..jus like friendships need a lotta things...and we ignored the fact that our friendship was wasting away..i kno that if we are friends in the end..WE WILL be a lot more stronger.i can promise that...i kno it'll take more strength to get thru it and a whole lot more trust..but the way i look at it..is our life doesnt end here..in this world.or even this lifetime..why trip over or focus ur energy on such a small matter...it may be big to u..but what i found out tonite..is that this is jus so stupid and little compared to what we're goin to face in 10, 20 years..if we cant handle this rite now..then we are both in for trouble..and plus beyond this lifetime.i want God to look at me and say how Hes proud how i handle situations..and because we are humans.i dont expect u to forgive me or i to forgive u so quick.but thats the cool thing bout God...He forgives us whenever we ask..thats so awesome personally..but neways..im sry...i dont like when friendships end in this..personally this whole ordeal was an internal struggle for me more than nething..im tryin to not get caught up w/keeping my emotions inside nemore..they need to get out..cuz they trully trully ruin me..if i build em' up..so sry if u have to bear w/me thru this stage..but i feel its somethin i need to do b4 somehtin bad happens...so thats how i feel.theres so much more to say.but im jus askin that u forgive me.cuz i dont think this is how its supposed to end..and if u want it that way thats fine too..i kno it'll be hard for both of us..cuz u may not believe it but ur note did hurt me in sum ways too.altho u said u were nice..so i both think we have things to do.and if we do decide to fix this..plz hear my side out..i still love u kiddo =D...gnite sweet dreams y'all <3