I hate this feeling that i'm feeling...and it's not the hangover, but that doesn't help either.

UGH!!! :( :( :(

I typed out an entry and deleted it. I guess the bottom line was that i'm extremely mopey for every reason in the world and no reason at all and I just want to cry...and probably will. I want to talk to victor...right now. I want to see him...right now. I just want to have him here...right now, and forever. and I can't, and he can't ( Read more... )

I've been trying to figure out in my head....when the time is that being away from Victor is going to get easier and less and less sad when I lay down to sleep and remember he's not going to be there when I wake up. I've been trying to figure it out in my head so I can look forward to a time when I can count the days until we can be together, ( Read more... )

Today is my day off and aside from awaiting a packgage from Victor today, I'd much rather be working. I'm ridiculously bored and everyone is either working, out of town, or not calling me. I could roam around and try to drag someone with me but i'd just end up impulsively spending money, and in the moment it's all fine and dandy, but at the end ( Read more... )

I've had such a hard time focusing today. I feel like I just want to lay in bed, sleep all day, and cry into my pillow and for no reason at all. I just feel really emotional and on edge. Today sucks and last night wasn't any better. I couldn't sleep at all last night and I was even tired. I laid in bed till 3am with my music on and when that ( Read more... )

I miss my Victor muchly. Very muchly. Ugh. :(

Last night was absolutely fabulous. I got a really nice buzz without going too overboard (I hope). I got to hangout with all my favoritest starbucks friends in the whole wide world, and meet and greet and make drunkenly fun conversation with many many others. I got to hangout with Mark and Tom after over a year and I miss those kids and wish I got ( Read more... )

So....I got the Assistant Manager position! Of all the interviews, my District Manager said that I was the best one and that I "WOWed" him with my professionalism, knowledge,and confidence. My manager said they talked about me a lot when they had their meeting and that it is extremely hard to wow him and the team of panel interviewers so to be ( Read more... )

So my family made the 4th this huge event this being the first 4th of July in the new house, it being JJ's first 4th, and everyone being able to attend ( Read more... )

I <3 my Victor because he calls me before my interview to wish me good luck, after my interview to see how it went, after my nap to bring me more smiles and laughs, and is going to call me before he goes to bed to say goodnight and he loves me. He's the best boyfriend ever and MYYY most favoritest person ever :) Even though he's so so far away he ( Read more... )