"But you don't hold out on your feelin's,/When there's lovin' on your mind./An' I say, mmm mmm, you're so good when you're bad."

[m__culkin_]

This has been a hectic couple of days, which the lack of updating alone could begin to tell you. But at 1 on saturday morning, I think that I can spare the time to type something small

Comments

[chris_d_r]

You're the only person who knows what's right for you and what isn't a mistake in your life. People always THINK they know, but they don't. Ignore them.

[m__culkin_]

you're right. but when the people, like my brother, mean so much to me, it's hard to just disregard how they feel about it

[chris_d_r]

Yeah, I know. Been there done that. *sighs* Still sucks though. Hopefully they'll understand some day.

[xally_hx]

Hey Mac, its been awhile, we need to get together again. Im sorry about all those other people, that have no business to say anything like that. It was between you and her and you all were in love and theres no mistakes in love. You just never know what might happen. So call me sometime soon...
<33 ya, Ally

[m__culkin_]

it's been way too long. i agree, it's between us, but, unfortunately, we don't live in a world that allows two people to be completely alone. so there are complications, and hearts get broken, and people think they know what's best.

i'll call you.

[xally_hx]

Yea I know and Im soo sorry, people just need to mind their own business. But if you ever need some help I can beat some ass ::bursts out laughing:: I know how to use my heels, hehehe. But you better call me soon cuz I wanna see you and hang out again!!
<33 Ally

[simon__cowell]

I find myself empathizing, because I, too, have had a long, ambivalent and rather tumultuous relationship with a woman to whom I was briefly married and about whom I still care. It took us many years to be able to look each other in the eye, much less be actual friends, but it did happen eventually. I believe that once you've fully convinced yourself that someone is going to be a part of your life forever, it becomes part of your actual grey matter, coded into your being. It's not a notion one can give up easily, because it's not a notion one gets into easily either.

Anyone who criticizes how one heals from that can, in my opinion, sod off. I don't know if that's helpful or meaningful to you, but there it is.

[m__culkin_]

i mean, rachel and i never had issues becoming friends again, probably because we were so young, and because it was so natural to be friends. but it's still awkward to some extent, even though we try so hard not to make it that way. it's inevitable that the person will be forever attached to you, but it's also inevitable that there will always be a barrier between you that can never be crossed.

it was helpful and meanigful, thank you

[_tyler_chasez_]

damn. the ex wife? i have enough problems with the ex girlfriends.

[m__culkin_]

oh, i have problems with them too, but i choose not to document them :)

[xoalibabixo]

Hey! It's Ali Landry! Just wanted to say hey and introduce myself! <3

[m__culkin_]

hi ali, i'm mac, nice to meet you