As my son talks about how unfair it is that men get all the hate, that it's not all men, I bite my tongue. How do I tell him, that yes, its not all men, but it is all women.

His father believes that a man can't rape his wife. I was the wife. I can assure you that it was possible for him to rape me.

But how do you tell a boy that his father is evil ( Read more... )

Ive always felt you were sour, only once I left and no longer had to smell you was I able to enjoy that sense, the beauty of smells so apparent around me, almost overwhelming in their possibility

Your sourness crawled towards me, trying to smother me, accomplishing at times

Success in making me believe I was too hard to love

Like a person drowning ( Read more... )

I don't know where I read this, but it will be stuck with me

When you're not fed love off a silver spoon, you learn to lick it off knives

I don't feel like I know you

Did I suddenly realize who you were and what I was seeing fell away

or is it something else?

I can't see you anymore,  Im looking at someone I should know, but all you feel is foreign

A brush of familiar

But nothing more

Like I can't quite place how we know each other

The feeling of your back in my palms when we hug ( Read more... )

I want all my skin off

I want to give you nothing to desire of

nothing to touch with those hungry hands

those hands that always take too much

always more than they are invited to take

I wish I could scream and spit in your face

I wish I could make you feel, truly, the dirty way you make me feel

I hate myself

I hate myself

but that hate should be ( Read more... )

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Your words are slippery

Your touch predatory

I am(was)? a safe house for your demons

You let them run rampant through me

And then blamed me for when I could no longer contain them, no longer absorb them, rework them, and spit them out as less sour, and more sweet

Im sorry i keep talking about him and what he did to me. I know it must be really really hard for you to hear and read. Im sorry. I feel like i need someone to bear witness, i dont know how to validate myself, i know it wont come from him, i know it has to come from me. im sorry that youve had to do that, i should be doing it. I cant shake the ( Read more... )

I realize we may have outgrown each other because I’ve had to get drunk tonight just so that I know how to be with you.

Its not as fluid or as seamless as I thought.

Maybe I made you seem more perfect because I needed an escape from something even worse at home

You both have ups

You both have downs

Which ups offset the downs?

Is it the 10 years, is ( Read more... )

Being with you for hours and not being able to kiss you or really touch you is torturous. I could sense where every part of you was, where your hands were and what your mouth was doing. When we finally made it to your house and your friend was asleep I knew you'd be coming into your room soon. Every time I heard a noise like you coming towards me ( Read more... )