Bargain

[m_lo_ol_m]

It seems that since coming out, I've somehow managed to procure free, endless streams of condoms, lube, and sunglasses.

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[m_lo_ol_m]

When tied to each of the temple tips of the sunglasses, the condom makes for a stretchy, secure neck cord or head strap.

[lifeafeast]

But not what you need huh? I read your updates in coming out, and your life after this turning point. That's the hardest, absolutely. Now you can start to live authentically, a little more each day, while peeling away layer and layer of the real person that was you that you had buried deep in layers of untruth over the years due to social pressure and homosexuality. It's a slow process for you to bury yourself in untruthover the years, so It will also be a slow process to re-discover and love the person that you are today and will become. You have already started on the journey to wellness for your spiritual and mental well-being, so don't lose heart. I am here if you ever need to talk.

Take care.

[m_lo_ol_m]

"Not what I need"-- heh, I've got like >100 condoms in my top dresser drawer right now. I need to start using them.

Thanks for your offer to talk and support. I may take you up on that sometime. Right now, I'm at the point of coming out where:
1) I detest everything het. Kind of get sick watching hets make out/have sex. Catching up on some great gay films!
2) Lying still seems like the easiest way out sometimes, and it often is, but not for the long run. I have to consciously force myself sometimes to tell the truth, even when I've no reason not to. So used to lying.
3) I have the social mentality of a 16-year-old girl. Was crushing HARD over someone this past week (kinda still am-- working on stalking him now -- can't stop looking at his FB pics) and haven't been able to get shit accomplished at work. Mood swings galore. I now know what my 16-year-old daughter is going through.