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either way. even if you made it through. you'll hear the crash behind you. and quietly wish that you hadn't gone. that it wasn't them. that it should've been you. even if you made it, you'll hear the crash and think that you should've let it happen. that it should've been you, not them. wish that you could've taken their place. wonder why you don't get that choice. shout at life for not allowing you that one small bit of grace.
what if i could. if only. like magic i could take your place. i wish it now. every night. that your tragedy could be mine instead. that for once, for once in all of eternity, love could mean something more than.
should it matter. should it matter at all if. knowing that. knowing so certainly that nothing could change it.