All of two muses in my short life
Thinking about it just makes me want to write
In love with two men that didnt even see me as like
I watch them both stare at me
Not knowing, I wasn't the one in their sight
3 hard years raining in on one
The other a merely over 8 months
When does one life end to know the other has begun
Friends they are
How could I be that ( Read more... )

When will I be able to enjoy my best
Just lay down and get normal comfortable rest
Stare at my ceiling with nothing but good thoughts in mind
Have a family and companion of love and no more negative waste of time
Open my eyes and breath in a new day
Have a mouth full of blessings with nothing but christ like things to say
Open my arms to hug an array of ( Read more... )

"I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have my everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time--everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I ( Read more... )

What you want isn't always what you need. Or so I've learned...

"I believe life is about trial and error. I tried you and you were an error."

If we listened to our intellect we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a friendship. We’d never go in business because we’d be cynical: “It’s gonna go wrong.” Or “She’s going to hurt me.” Or,”I’ve had a couple of bad love affairs, so therefore” Well, that’s nonsense. You’re going to miss life. You’ve got to jump off the cliff and build your ( Read more... )

 
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I realized that lately I can't write anything without feeling like Carrie Bradshaw. However I'm glad that writing is slowly becoming what it was to me before... therapy.

I didn't want to talk to anyone. I thought I had the strength to deal with it. But today after a very long day of work & classes it all fell apart. I simply just walked up stairs, silently opened the door and fell to the floor and let out the most sincerest cries of my life.

DO NOT REBOUND! Deal with it. All of it. The emotions, the sleepless nights, the lonliness. Go out with the girls, engage in some retail therapy atleast 4x's a week and watch as much Sex&TheCity as possible. And trust me when you reach that point where you are OVER IT, I mean truly truly OVER IT, it will feel astonishing.