fuck off

[mac_and_cheese]

it's funny how someone you thought cared about you can take your heaven and turn it into hell. why do people insist on being such assholes all the fucking time? for instance, i have this 'friend', who's getting pissy with me, and probably everyone else because of one jackass. and honestly, it kind of makes you second guess whether you were friends

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[charmed_one88]

*Hugs* I'm sorry you feel this way, buddy. I <3 you. And don't say you're not all that great of a person coz to me you are and being yourself is what simply makes you all that great of a person. I don't give a shit what anyone says. You're awesome <333333

[mac_and_cheese]

ha... thanks crissy... sometimes i just don't understand people...
<3

[charmed_one88]

np. most people suck and it's hard to understand them. it's ok if you don't understand people, i mean no one can understand them 100% or anything. at least you do make an effort to understand and that's all you need to do when it comes to people. well... if you're my friend then that means you don't suck ^_^ (and you are my friend so you don't suck, you're awesome) <3333

[jillianlee]

hey sweetz, we are sitting here in newspaper. im sorry hun, that really sucks... sometimes friends change... people change, or we don't judge them correctly the first time. it's good that you aren't going to stand around and be treated like shit... you deserve better... you really do. i luv ya colleen. -jillian

[mac_and_cheese]

yeah, i know. i just felt blind sided... thanks jilly :)

[jillianlee]

Yeah... sometimes people are jerks. I luv ya hun.

[derisive_bias]

You know you're right Colleen, Jillian's right, you don't need me to tell you that. You do deserve better. I'm a jerk. But YOU are a great person. I'm the one that's not. And it wasn't just you that I was all pissy at. There's a total of probably three that I didn't piss off at some point this weekend. And again, you're right. You didn't and don't deserve to be treated like that. I don't know that there's anything else I can say but, I'm sorry. And I don't know it that means much to you anymore.

[mac_and_cheese]

rasp, you are not a 'jerk' ok? no ones perfect. and it wasn't that you pissed me off, you HURT me, made me feel worthless, as though our friendship meant nothing to you. how was i supposed to feel? and everything always matters, but sometimes instead of lashing out at people for things they don't understand maybe you should let them in, and let them know what's going on.

[derisive_bias]

Not okay, I AM a jerk, I'm a bitch, I know it. I had no intentions of hurting you in any way, or making you feel worthless, and it, and you, mean a whole lot more than nothing to me. I just don't let people in, or let them know whats going on. I try to avoid any kind of serious discussion at all costs. Which is probably why you said you felt blind sided. You're always happy or try to be happy when you talk to me, and most other people. You just keep it inside you to make everyone else happy, and try to convince yourself you're happy. I can't do that. When I'm sad, or mad, or depressed, or anything but happy, people are going to get yelled at for no reason. I would really stop if I could. But when I'm mad..I don't think about anything but being mad. And if I ever do let someone in, or let them know what's going on, they're going to try to counsel me. And I don't want other people breaking down every single thing that's wrong with me. When something's wrong, I'll get it handled eventually. It's going to make me even more mad when they

[mac_and_cheese]

fine rasp... tell yourself whatever you want. but don't tell me what i think you are, being that it's my mind, maybe you should leave that up to me. and i know you don't want me to counsel you, i wasn't trying to. but avoiding something doesn't make it go away, yes, it's hidden, but it's still there. festering..growing..until it becomes unbearable. and you said that i pretend to be happy, happiness is a choice rasp. you choose how you feel, how you let things affect you. i chose to let you close enough to hurt me, maybe it was a mistake, but regretting things does't make anything better. plus, i happen to think you're a good friend. and you're right, when you're angry you let people know, yet you deny them any access as to what is wrong with you. that is just another way of "pretending" the problem doesn't exist.which in a sense is exactly what you seem to think i do.