Comments | mac_tassels: the deal...

mac_tassels

the deal...

Feb 21, 2004 15:19

ok. so, here's the deal. I hate this thing, but i just cant stay away. Lately i have been feeling like i dont exist, like noone would notice if i dropped off the face of the planet. In testing my theory i found that it is true. No one notices unless you make them notice. I decided that i dont really like that feeling, but i cant just go on being in ( Read more... )

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You are talking to me homie!!!! anonymous February 21 2004, 14:24:35 UTC

i totally agree with you, i also feel invisible most times. It's sad because I pretty much know that if i didnt actively try to keep in touch with my friends, I wouldnt have any. Two tears in a Bucket---onwards and upwards.

You said you'd found your soulmate, right. What is your definition of a soulmate? i have been asking this question for ages and i cant get a satisfactory anwser.

BY now you are probably wondering who i am..... Well dont fret, I got word of your live journal through Emily, she has you listed as a friend and since i cant get enough of reading about her life--- i read about her friends lives too.
voyeurism rules!!!

Re: You are talking to me homie!!!! mac_tassels February 21 2004, 16:21:33 UTC

You are right, i am wondering who you are. That's a little creepy. I have meny different definitions of the word soulmate. I feel that a soulmate can be a soul friend. Two people of the same spirit. Matty is my soul friend. As far as an actual soulmate goes, i have no answer for you....I am now feeling like the lesbian version of Dr. Laura.
Who are you?

strangers, soulmates, and forgottenness belligerence101 February 21 2004, 19:02:33 UTC

lara oh lara!

you are not speaking to nobody - and my anonymous friend has apparently just proved it!(kristian, is that you? who else do i know that says "homie" and is obsessed with soulmates?) anyhow, sorry my non-lj friends are being mysteriously *creepy* but i can assure you they are harmless.

and as for thinking no one has noticed your disappearance... we have. i have. it's no good. i hope i haven't seemed distant or unfriendly or anything - i've just been stepping back from stuff and people in general to immerse myself in project and re-finding Me, and i'm sorry if it seems like i don't care. because i do. i really, really do. i guess you'll just hafta trust me on that.

in the meantime, you should keep writing in the old lj since all of us other fools do!

My Bad anonymous February 21 2004, 23:32:39 UTC

Sorry if i freaked you out. That was not my intention, I was just thinking about the disappearance thing when i read your lj, and I wanted you to know that someone was paying attention---even if it was only for a couple of minutes and I am a complete stranger. Really Sorry.
But yes Emily, this is your non-lj and completely harmless friend Kristian-- as for who i am, Emily can give you the details. Sorry again.

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its all in the perception witch_baby11 February 22 2004, 16:59:57 UTC

Lara, you say no one notices you, and that you are invisible. I say that you should be more aware of the people who do notice you and see you. If you saw them, maybe you wouldn't feel so alone.

Re: its all in the perception witch_baby11 February 22 2004, 17:33:16 UTC

i think imogen is more or less dead on. maybe its not so much that no one notices you, its that perhaps you are so concerned with people noticing you, that maybe you forget the duality and mutuality of a friendship. for the record, when i've felt this way in the past (which i have) i find that giving a little more to the friendships that are important to me allows me not only to feel connected, but to remind others of the importance of the relationship. good luck :-)

mac_tassels February 22 2004, 22:44:27 UTC

well, there is only so much one can put out. sometimes it feels really good for someone to talk to you for no reason...or for someone to call just to say hi or even for someone to let you know what is going on and not just assume that either you dont want to be a part of whatever "it" is, or that you already know. i do not want to have to be the one following people around all the time. sometimes i want to feel actually included. I see your point...but it does not always apply, and i am feeling like the more i put myself out there, the more of a fool i am made out to be. Not to be depressing or nuthin....

reevaluation witch_baby11 February 23 2004, 12:03:14 UTC

well, perhaps then you need to reevaluate what you're "putting out there" and how it is being perceived. maybe changing your efforts would produce a different result ( ... )

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